I'm at it again. I hate this. I really hate this. Brought this upon myself so I should be responsible for my own decision. Super super super uber duper disappointed with myself right now.

If I can have something I couldn't have, it will be staying at home for as long as i want. Today I rekindled the times/ days I had with myself after quitting my job in march. Definitely staying at home is my cup of tea except when there's meeting up with those crazzzzzy friends (: I love spending time with myself man! It's great!

One and only point on why I wish weekend will never end. I don't want school to start.

Since I had earlier that I spent time with myself today, I didn't touch any of my schoolwork this afternoon. It's wrong of me to do that and I know that. Now is still not too late to face up to reality so I should not run away from it. Face up to it Krystal! To make myself study, I shall give myself one motivation which is study smart now until poly life ends so that I can get myself out of this quick. Why study smart so that poly life can end faster? It's simple. If I don't and i failed any subjects I have to repeat another semester or a year. Nothing like that will I want it to happen to me. I want to end this fast in three years (minus four weeks since it had already past).

Growing up in this type of family had taught me what not to teach to my future children. Definitely there's a lot of 'not-to' and also a lot of 'what-to' to teach them. Being farsighted now. Each day seems like a day for me to learn to be an adult and also each day is a learning process of discovering who I really am. Lastly, each day will be better if there's no school! WOO HOO! However without schooling, there's no knowledge. Without knowledge, there's no future for me.

The 'I want my alone time' is still in my head now. Dianny told me future & my dreams will motivate me. Feeling better now :D