one and only way to genuine smile is to follow your heart. Nothing beats having to do something against your wishes.

"What would you do if you have everything you desire for? What will you look forward to then?" Saw this inspirational advertisement in tvmobile. Don't remember the actual sentences. It's somewhere along the line. Nevertheless, it sets me thinking. I'm glad I still have things to look forward to. Things that I want. Once I want something, I'll try my best to get it. Things that I won't remember the very next day doesn't count if I said I wanted them today. yeah, HOPES AND WISHES! :D

hmm.. had to urge to drink lipton tea and uncle happened to bought a box of lipton tea! He brew one teabag for me :D Not only he bought lipton tea back, he bought cookies from famous amos for me! Fortunate or what? HAHA!

I'm not done with pom. Can't concentrate. Mind kept drifting to june break. All the things that I'm planning to do. Musst goooo bacccck tooooo stuuuuudy!

Got to help out mum for two days during june break cause she's going overseas. Aunty Lil's reaching sg on 10th June, 2.30am :D I'm letting her have my room. We're going shopping on that day soo I must start saving! Not forgetting my friends, I'll definitely shop with them too! :D provided I have the ability to shop. haha. the mood and the $$. LOL

nights!

This is no play. haha. Maybe some small updates everyday until after tests. Definitely will check for emails and other stuffs. Nothing more than that.

Till then ((:

HAPPY BELATED CHERYL MOK!

Have we got you surprised and scared? HAHAHA.

Dinner-ed ytd at aston. poor cake =/ Flyer! YEAH! I scream and jumped in the cabin. I think those ppl outside saw me.LOL. Went clark quay (or is it boat quay?) to drink after flyer. So now, I'm officially broke :(

I saved and spent and am totally disappointed with myself now. eeeeeediot! Now I've got to save saving so I can shop with Aunty Lilian when she's here on 10th jun. (her plane's touching down in the wee morning on 10th june. haha) On that same exact day, she's gonna fly off to China with mum. :( without me. LOL. Nvm. I had my share in march :D

Luckily this year, mum didn't plan to go overseas during june. Told her even before poly started that I'll definitely have projects to finish during june and tempted her to bring me on holiday during march. HEH. *evil grins* For that, i think, the whole family is not going anywhere this june. Good. If not I'll be left alone at home like how my mum wanted me to travel back from china to take care of aunt in 07 and live at home alone for a few days. She even wanted to bribe me with money. Quite a lot though if I didn't rmb wrongly. my mum -.- Sadly, I don't think she'll ever bribe me with money again. LOL. I sound like my mum did smth terribly wrong and needs me to cover up for her. haha.

So apparently, kor's workplace didn't work out. Need to find another way then. Goodluck to me. Time's running out & I don't like a single bit of it.

Looking forward to june break! I NEED A VACATION & A JOB! :(

Exams are next week! It's like only 5 weeks of sch and exams-.- GREAT. After that, I have things lining up to be done over the 2 weeks holiday.

Aunty Lilian is coming over on the 9th June. On the 10th, she'll be going to China with mum. However, she'll be returning to perth on the same day she arrives from china :( Most probably she'll be sleeping in my room when she's here. She said before my room is better than my brothers' cause it's quieter and less bright :D (See I know how to pick room! HAHA) She asked whether I need anything from perth and I was prompted to ask her buy storybooks for me because Singapore doesn't have the books I want to read :( But, I didn't ask her to as she has to find time and buy it for me. Too troublesome. Looking forward to see her again! (Okay. Now I want to go Perth again :( SHOPPING! )

Okie. Off to study econs and do tutorial for tmr. :(

damn irritating. I've been hearing my bro talking about how he's been bullied in sch today. Heard it for at least five times. no I think more than ten times. He's been repeating it over and over again like a tape recorder putting on repeat.

Seriously, my youngest bro is law/rules abidding. Sch rules say no fighting and he didn't fought back when ppl hit him! HMPH! Hell with the sch rules when ppl are fighting you! YOU'RE SUCH A BIG SIZE! It's kind to stand up for your friend but it's damn over the borderline when ppl fight you! Youngest bro had been bullied when he's in pri sch. Now, it happened in sec sch. Dad's going to find that guy who hit my bro tmr. That guy's too much! IDIOT!!! He bruised my bro's arm man! Dad's super furious and if the sch didn't do any actions, he wants to file for a police report. That bruise is HUGE. abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz!!!

Dad said for the fourth time that no one bullys him. Only he bullys others.LOL. He used to be a rebel but scored high grades when schooling. Now for work, only he scolds others and not the other way round. He sounded very gangster.

Btw, the bro I'm referring to is my youngest bro. By looking at his size, you'll find it damn ridiculous he'd been bullied. He's damn bad tempered and talk back my parents and yet he doesn't dare to do it to his classmates. -.-

Anyway, I blogged to vent my anger and to wish happy birthdays. Off to accouting. :( :@

nights. Why is he so abidding to rules?!?!??! When it's over the line, who cares?!?!

happy birthdays

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! I'm not used to saying romantic stuffs to my family. Cause apparently there wasn't much affection shown in my family -.- LOL.

Anyway, Mum I'll always love you even when you grow old and be a grandma :D Don't exhaust yourself too much. You're no longer 30, like 20 years ago. heh. And something i hope for, use the presents we buy for you. Pls pls pls don't waste your gifts by putting them in the cupboard. I beg you.

Mum I need to spend more time with you. I only have photos of us when we went to Perth this year-.- Those are the only pics I have of you. Pathetic. I want to go on a holiday with you AGAIN.

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GOH JIAN LEE! I'm super uber sorry that I got the date wrong. heh. I know you're disappointed. It's great to be your table partner for the whole of sec four! My maths results used to be disappointing. But you taught me maths so thanks ar. LOL. Initially when i first knew that you'll be my table partner, I totally went 'sian-ed'. But as time goes by, you're not as irritating as I thought you were.HAHA. Goodluck for poly and your future (: Catch up with you soon yeah?

sleepy and yet have to do excel test soon. :( I want to sleep. gah

woots! Just came back from vivo an hour ago. LOL. Bought mum presents with ade and tang. I hope mum will like it lah. If not waste my siblings and my money again. LOL. All thanks to tang, I'm sneezing now. LOL

dinner-ed at carls junior. HEH. I wanted to drink the ice lemon tea there. Think ade's the one who mixed it for me. Anw the drink's nice :D used to not drink ice lemon tea cause it doesn't taste nice. Guess i'll start drinking that now (:

Took quite a lot of photos just now. will upload when ade upload the pics. OR when I feel likek uploading them. HEH.

Super duper tired now! I feel like slping now but I need to practise on excel! ARGH! stupid computers man! If only csa disappears from my course. heh. which is impossible! :(

I think I'd decided on my career path. Most probably I'll do something regarding planning. This requires a lot of hardwork though. I guess that's what my interest is in. If not I will do something that doesn't restrict me from my thoughts. heh.

Bless me! I hope the runny nose will stop. nights!

Today's a not-so-bad day. heh. After comm skills, ching hong;si jia; and i , chiong chicken pie before entering lt for csa lec. Si jia couldn't mange to finish the pie so she brought it in. ch and I ate the fastest lo. HAHA. imagine this slow eater (which is me) can eat faster than others. HAHA

On my way home today on 64, the bus driver asked two Indian foreigners to get out of the bus. I THINK. Cause the two of them gave a fustrated look when the bus driver drove away. Is this the attitude that bus drivers show to their customers? Somemore the bus is catered to disabled people. Won't the bus driver gets fustrasted if there's a disabled who needs help to get on the bus?

Mum's going to China with Aunty Lilian in June. So I need to get down to chinatown tmr morning before sch to pay for her air ticket. I hope I can get up. Initally aunty lilian said there's no one whom she can rely on to take care of Kayelin. Hence I'm wondering whose taking care of Kayelin? Or did she went ahead with my suggestion? I wonder.

Sad now because mum refuse, i think, to return me my passbook. Dad encouraged her not to do so. SAD! Nvm. It's better off for me.

I'm excited for fri. I hope everything will turn out fine :DDDD Not only fri. I'm excited for june and aug. WOOTS!

packing my bag for tmr. NIGHTS!

Oh yeah~ Submitted csa draft and it seems like a heavy load off my mind. If only it's the final project.. so that i need not worry about it during my two weeks break.

Mum's bday is around the corner. Planning to buy a wallet for her while kor wants to treat her and i buffet at his workplace. I'm not sure what my younger brothers think of buying her a wallet. What's worst is that all my three brothers didn't even know when my mum's birthday is -.- I HAD to tell them! Such good sons of my mum -.- Kor's treating me because he owed me one for my O's. Actually, I'm surprised he remembered cause i'd already forgotten about it since it's so long ago. Justin & Jonathan are also eating buffet with us but they're paying for themselves. heh. Kor's not paying for them. LOL. I think if the both of them see this, they'll complain.

Alright. Back to today. Bm library-ed with ade. I was supposed to help her with her csa but I don't think I helped much also. Excel's alien to me too. As i said earlier, fnished excel and submitted it but only at night. Not when in the library. Went to popo house after that. I love the dongfen with the cabbage man. GOODNESS :D

There's something about myself that I'm suspecting since long time ago. Maybe I'm just a little different mentally. I know it isn't logical but I still think it's possible for me to turn insane. Just like my uncle. yeah. I sound like an idiot saying this but it's what I'm suspecting man. My cousin's like that. My aunt's like that. My uncle's like that. Even some long-distance relatives in China are born mentallydisabled. My uncle's a different case though. Don't care about me. I'm just being random.

YEAH! I just love planning things man. I once thought of becoming a wedding planner. No jokes. I mean it. It's so magical and self-fulfillment to plan for someone's Dreams-come-true. Moreover it's a pretty fun and enjoyable job. Now, I should really consider seriously what I want to be when i grow up. I mean career eh and not what's after marriage. heh.

I'm contented that I finally got to watch gg ep 25. thanks ade!

The weather's killing me. It's so humid and dry! I'm already sticky man. Why can't my parents just store one aircon in my room like the house in henderson? argh. I missed sleeping in aircon rooms. And I'm missing the big room I used to share with my younger brothers when we stayed at Henderson. I used to joke and disturb them until after they fell aslp. And then eventually when no one replied me, I'll slp too. LOL.

Gtg slp now. I promised myself to slp before 12mn but it's alrdy 12.45am. But still, it's earlier than the time i usually sleeps.

nights!

YEAH! I can say I'm mostly done for CSA! WOOHOO! look at the time now. it's near dawn. :( meeting up with ade at 10. gonna pack and slp now.

NIGHTS!

Shall summarize today. In no mood, seriously no mood, to blog.

-didn't go sentosa in the end
-lunch at mensa 2. ate western food. value for money.
-movie. angels and demons. nice.
-Aunty Lilian emailed me. took me a long time to reply her back.
-damn tired and feels stupid now!
-wants to speak out everything to my diary now.

nights.

Living through the days without knowing what the dates are. I'll definitely know the days though cause I'm counting down every single day. heh. Don't worry, I know I had been blogging long posts these few days. Won't be doing that these few weeks luh. haha.

This morning I decided to sleep until 9 plus then switch on to watch American Idol Final Live. I don't watch American Idol luh. Watched for the fun of watching. haha. Got the feeling that Kris will win and he won! LOL.

I know that my dad watch American Idol lah. Not watch from beginning till end though. But still, I find him hip. Haha. He told me that i can check the result from the internet and need not watch it early in the morning. (Most probably he checked from the internet.) I cnt imagine my dad typing "who won american idol" into google man! What if one day my dad told me he has facebook and skype? Tell you what. I'll freak out! LOL!

Anyway, I forgot to bring my econ notes. I think second time. Maybe first but to me, it seems like i always forget to bring it. Sijia forgot to bring hers too and she was laughing at me before that for forgetting to bring notes. HAHA.

Sentosa-ing tmr with 1b03. Afterwards movie at vivo. Hmm.. What can i do in 2 hours?

nights!

Tired. Super tired. Slept for only three hours last night. Was finding the info for CSA project. Now the only information to find is the drugs. After that I can do the formulaes etc to my spreadsheets.

Chicken rice for dinner. Ate at Jalan Besar coffe shop. I used to go there frequently with my sg cousins, two younger brothers and my dad. Dad used to drive all 5 of us in his car when he still owned one. The size of the round round chicken rice became smaller. haha. But still the rice is still fragrance. Reminded me of the chicken rice my popo cooks.

My parents doesn't like to own cars. All thanks to singapore for having such an advance transportation network connecting around the whole singapore. Dad sold his when I'm in pri sch cause he said we've grown up so there's no need for a car. Petrol are expensive but bus and train fares are cheap. Mum won a cool car 2/3 years ago but sold it cause she said it's troublesome and she's getting old. LOL. I missed traveling in a car with my family and dad as the driver. Dad used to drive me to Keng Seng Pri when I'm in pri 1. I used to sleep at the back seats on the way to school. I miss those times man. Too bad all my brothers hasn't got the chance to be driven to school by my dad. HAHA! I feel so fortunate! :D

One good thing for today. I understand the things taught in Accounting lecture today! YEAH! Including today, I had attended five accounting lectures and today is the only one i understood. Praise Lord (:

Alright gonna go befriend accounting and do the tutorial for tmr. haha. Maybe econs too. But I don't think I will. Too tired. I need my sleep if not my parents will nag me for sleeping late again. Nights (:

WOOHOO! I'm in school's lab now. Excel lesson but now it's free time! Besides blogging, I'm doing my excel speadsheet. it's giving me headaches!!! argh! But at least after the mock test, I'm understood the formulaes better. Thank God!

Felicia said that I laughed till my whole face went red. haha. That's because Dad smsed me "Evening eat chicken rice 7pm. (insert smiley face". LOL. I find the sms cute. HAHA. I imagained my dad telling me that in person then flash a smile at me. LOL! FUNNY! HAHHAH.

Shall go back to my excel spreadsheet (: BYE!

♥ long bus rides

I love long bus rides. Especially bus rides along the town area or car rides in those english angmoh countries. There's a lot to see. Everyday you're seeing different things and it's always interesting. Besides, those people on the streets you saw, you're only going to see them once. So it's always something new everyday. Perhaps if you smile to those people at the bus stops, you'll get a smile back. I think I tried that before. Can't remember though. HAHA. Definitely don't try that to older Singaporeans. They'll scold you like you're some mad woman on the loose. haha. Therefore, it is obvious that I like to sit at the windows side if not how can i look out of the bus/car? However, I have motion sickness so yeah i can't tahan bus rides/ boat rides which take hours or even lesser time and can't read on buses/cars. I remembered taking motion sickness pills when the bus ride to Taman Negara took hours.

Today's ride to school was rather interesting. Once again, i think every tuesday, I'll see the old lady who is wheelchair bound will board bus 64 with the help of her maid.( I'll only see them when i board the 11.45am bus. So today's the second time i saw them.) Nevertheless, the bus driver will get out of his seat and pull out the ramp for the old lady to board. Onlookers, who are curious, will look out of the exit door. This time round, the bus driver was different from the one two weeks ago ( i think). That's the first interesting thing.

At the bus stop in river valley came boarding a Indian Family. From what I saw, they're tourists. They flagged for bus 64 and was standing in front of the exit door waiting for the door to open and alight. The father was wondering why the door wasn't openning and he turned his face up from the ground and looked up. One lady sitting near the door in the bus pointed to the family to board at the front. Then, they walked to the entrance while everyone waited for them. The whole family walked into the bus while the father looked kinda snobbish without paying. lol. (from what i obvious can. not racist or anything). The driver asked for the father to pay but obviously the family didn't know we have to pay for our bus rides. The father then asked for the amount and got it from his wife coins(if i'm not wrong) to pay for the fares since he doesn't not have small change. Interesting fact number two today. haha. Yeah some countries need not pay for their bus rides. When i went to perth, my auntie(godmother) said they need not pay. COOL. if only singapore is like that. LOL. in my dreams.HAHA

When I alighted at The Arcarde's bus stop in Little India, I saw two angmoh couples. One couple was standing at the bus stop while the other away from the bus stop. At the turn at The Verge, there came a Hippo bus who was traveling along the road at little india. Both couples turned and looked at the Hippo Bus with smiles on their faces and chatted something to their partners. I think they're thinking of taking a ride in the Hippo Bus. So both decided to set off from where they are(i think they had been standing there for quite a while deciding on their next destination). The couple at the bus stop decided to head to the direction where the Hippo bus is heading to while the other couple turned and walked towards the direction where the Hippo bus came from. After a few mins, the couple who went to the direction where the Hippo Bus headed turned back and walked to the direction where it came from. Interesting tourists (: That's the third one.

Also at the bus stop, there was one a little mentally disabled indian man who walked passed the bus stop. He was talking loudly about something when he walked passed the two angmoh couples. Both were looking at him curiously. I think they seldom have this in their countries. The expressions on the couple face at the bus stop makes me want to smile. The guy looked kind of shock. Maybe they didn't expect to see this in singapore, a country who is developed. Fourth thing i saw today. Interesting for a person like me. I wonder what i'll see tmr in my bus rides. Anyway, that's one of the thing i look forward everyday for school. LOL. Another one is friends. haha.

I know my post is already very long but i still want to make it longer. HAHA! Once again, I shall emphasize that I like my post to be long cause I have lots to say. If there's any post which is short, it means i'm tried, am busy to type or i don't feel like blogging. However, usually even if there's things on my hands to do, i'll still post. HAHA. That's because i feel like posting especially when i am busy. HAHA.

Three yeah for today! Firstly, i deposited a few ten dollars into my pathetic bank account. Don't curse me to withdraw money hor. Secondly, I had a two hours nap! WOOHOO! shiok ar i tell you. HAHA. Afternoon naps are just so like secondary sch days when I reach home from sch or after hanging out with friends. Just like the good old days man. HAHA. Lastly, I might have dinner with dad tmr. I guessed that he'll ask me if I've eaten the round round chicken rice. haha. dad's always like that. When i said i wanted to buy smth, he'll ask me if i've bought it if not usually he'll buy it for me. HAHA (: Best dad hor! So i told him I didn't manage to get the chicken rice last fri so he told me if he's free tmr after work, he'll bring me go there eat! YEAH!!!!! HAHA! I'm happy okay. Pray that dad will be free tmr so i can have dinner there. HAHA! YES! I miss the soup man! nice <33

Okay. I'm ending here after tons of paragraphs I've written. Off to continue on CSA! :(

p.s i think this is the most wordy post i ever have.HAHA. YES! =D

what makes you think the world's getting better?

This world keeps spinning faster
To a new disaster, so I run to you
I run to you, Baby

When it all starts coming undone
Baby, you're the only one I run to
I run to you


If i say i want to kill people, will you believe me?
If i say i ever thought of quitting school, will you believe me?
If i say i'm not the girl you think i am, do you think i'm joking with you?
If i say you cannot please me easily, will you believe me?
If i say i do things using my feelings, do you think i mean it?
If i say when i set my mind on doing something, do you think i'll really do it?
If i say i have no idea what my future job will be, do you think i want it?
If i say i want a lot of alone time without having to do schwork, will you believe me?
If i say that i want lots of money to travel all over the world before i die, do you think i'll make it?
If i say i want to revamp my room more, do you think i mean it?
If i say i miss hanging out with my close friends a lot, do you believe me?
If i say i to experience a family outing, do you think it will happen?
If i say i want to donate blood, do you think i dare?
If i say i want to donate my organs if i die young, do you think i will?
If i say i prefer doing my own things than studying, do you believe me?
If i say i want to know more about my aussie cousins, are they thinking the same too?
If i say i want remain with 4B'08 till i graduate, do you think i'm nuts?
If i say i like to observe people, do you think it's true?
If i say i like to try bungee jumping, do you think i will?
If i say nothing is impossible, do you think i'm faking it?
If i say everything is based on your will, will you believe me?
If i say no one but only you can fail yourself, do you take my words for real?
If i say i like to read books, do you think i'm kidding you?
If i say i hope to improve my english tremendously, will you think it's real?
If i say i hope to write and read chinese as good as i used to be, do you think it's possible?
If i say i hope i have unlimited acces to sitting planes, will it be real/ possible?
If i say i used to have thoughts of suicide(in pri 5/6), do you think i'm bluffing you?
If i say i keep things for memory sake, do you think i really do that?
If i say i hope there's a sch break/holiday which last for one year, will it happen?
If i say i used to have short hair, do you think it's real?



Okay okay. A very long 'If i say'. I know I've been emo almost all/ all of the entries since sch started. Class is great. Friends are superb. Everything's nice. I'm the one with the problem. Simply said, I'm still adapting to this sentence- "Sch had already started". I just don't like the idea of coping myself doing hmwk. It's not really the thing for me to do something similiar everyday.

Fortune teller said before I'm not suitable for office jobs. I need to mooooove around doing different things. You might guessed it right. Having little thoughts about integrated events management. Fell in love at first sight when i saw that course in the brochure. Unfortunately I didn't put it as first choice. I don't know why i didn't then. Even if i do so, the cop is 13 and i'm 14. Little chances for me to get in.

Long post everyday. I like it. HAHA. Lots of things to say (: When it comes to writing, I write whatever comes to my mind. Just like my personal diary, I'll write several pages when i'm not tired. Whenever i write my post I'll think of Mrs Dass. She always say I'm long-winded. Even though it's an insult, she mean it well. If not for my this 'weakness', I wouldn't be confident for my oral (: Most probably i inherited this gene from my mum since she talks a lot too.

Still doing my csa excel sheet. I'm thinking on what to do with the formulas, function, etc... That car from don't know where has its car alarm ringing for quite long. Can't the car owner stop the alarm? It's irritating. I can't think. It's making me dizzy. Irritating!

Think dad had been transferred to work around tampines area this time round. He's always working around singapore. Bukit merah, ang mo kio, yishun, jurong, etc.. Lots of locations. That's why he says he doesn't have a fix office number. I think he wants to meet me for dinner at tampines but he always call at the wrong day/time. Today's the third time he called me out for dinner but i'd alrdy eaten. (Yeah! the car alarm stopped!) Hopefully dad will call at the right timing next time. I want free dinner! HAHA.

Alright. I got to do a little more for excel and then head to my bed. Bed has been calling me out to sleep on it. I guess my bed won't leave me alone for a sec. LOL!

MIsses

WOO HOO! Roti Prata for breakfast (: Crispy, fresh, cheap but the waiting time is quite long cause it's famous in Redhill :D Hadn't have that for months/one year plus. Had a craving for that last night. Ade's craved for yong tau fu but it's not open today.

Studied at Bm mac. The last time i went to bm mac to study was with glenda, jia yin and yuping. Studied for O lvl the last time. Imagine it's been more than half a year since i last went to that mac. Managed to read finish almost all my research and read through a little pom. However, didn't manage to do much of excel but i roughly know what i want to do.

As usual, sun is for going to popo's house. Drank black chicken soup <33>AT BM MAC TODAY(sun)

i was reading at my research okayyy


I forgot what ade was doing. fb-ing? haha

brought my camera stand. cute lor. HAHA. never use before even though my cam is like 2.5 years old. HAHA


Misses!


bought large but i only drank a quater of it -.- forgot that i don't drink much soft drink -.-

Misses

I kind of miss Mrs Dass :( Miss Lim & Miss Ho too lah!
Mrs S R Nathan can! HAHA

Seniors + gab + melissa + Bao sian who are not in the pic
I miss spending time with them!

farewell party. part of the seniors who went.

That's my girl girl okay. haha

Whole Campany as at 2007. FUN!!!!!!! ( 2008 pic not with me) I MISS GUIDING!


2007 South Division Campfire! Proudest moment! Hardwork of the then sec 3s(which is us) :D
We planned months before the actual day. Put in a lot of time & effort too!


Zhu's 16 Birthday! only grp photo i can find in my thumbdrive. (haven't upload finish)
I miss all of them too even though i just saw most of them last fri! :(


This place reminded me of Mdm lee treating jia yin, adele & I for Hans because we helped her out during the holidays (:


I miss this bus stop before my stop heading home. Back from tiong with friends back then :(((
I miss my friends!


I miss taking these bus numbers frequently. These all the bus numbers I'm familiar with. Not those alien 23,69,8,15 etc ...

I miss my house bus stop even though i don't take the bus to sch.. Cause that's the bus stop i usually alight after i go out with my friends!

I miss walking pass this mrt station every morning during sec school days. I miss buying breakfast from Mr Bean/ Qbread. my cheese pancake & blended pearly soya milk :(


I miss having to cross the first zebra crossing(left pic) to the junction to cross the first traffic light. I miss crossing the second zebra crossing because it's an indication I'm reaching sch soon.


I miss daddy bringing us around in thailand and shopping back in 2006.

I miss walking pass Wheelock even though i seldom walk pass there. Usually go there with dad or brothers because of phone or apple. I rmbed daddy buying an ipod for me as a reward and encouragement.....

I miss walking pass here to Far East Plaza. I miss running in the rain with glenda, jia yin, cheng ting, yu ping and fanny. ( did i get the ppl correct?) I rmb it was raining heavily and we only have an umbrella. No choice but to share.. HAHA

I miss walking/shopping around in far east... Basically hanging around with friends during the long holidays (:


Should be asleep long ago by now but because i really want to blog about those I miss, I decided to sleep at a later time. got to go slp now. comm skills test tmr. I'm scare I'll fail. 600 words man. I know I'm long-winded but my brain is kind of rusty with penning down properly structured sentences onto paper(s).

God give me the knowledge to do well tmr.

nights ((:

visit :DDDDDD

:D Cousin Lloyd is coming over to Singapore on 2 Aug. Not sure how long will he stay cause he'll be going to KL and i think he'll be flying to hongkong from there and then to some other places before settling for the exchange university he is going to. From what he told me the last time, he said he'll stay in singapore for about a week. So the week he is coming, all of my brothers and I are studying. not bad right... such a good timing..... LOL.

Still, we have to bring him around singapore, which is like definitely will. Obliged to do that since he brought me to his uni when i went to perth in march this year. However, he went to the wrong class -.- I was laughing at him! HAHAHA! But kor is more obliged than me! HAHAHAH! Cause he brought him to more places when he went over last month! HAHAHHAHAH. Cousin brought kor to more places cause he's having break at that time :( LOL.but nvm. I'll feel weird going out with a guy. I alrdy felt weird when i went to his uni with him. LOL

On the surface it seems like I don't want to bring him out. LOL HAHAHAHH! It's not I don't want. I'll feel weird. Kor is one year older than Lloyd so they can go do their guys things what. clubbing, pool, etc..... Only if Kor can't bring him or occupy his time while he's here, I'll plan something fun for him. Try to since singapore has limited space. no jet-skiing & cycling beside the road.....

Gotta read up on research. BYE! stupid csa, test and many many more!

I'm at it again. I hate this. I really hate this. Brought this upon myself so I should be responsible for my own decision. Super super super uber duper disappointed with myself right now.

If I can have something I couldn't have, it will be staying at home for as long as i want. Today I rekindled the times/ days I had with myself after quitting my job in march. Definitely staying at home is my cup of tea except when there's meeting up with those crazzzzzy friends (: I love spending time with myself man! It's great!

One and only point on why I wish weekend will never end. I don't want school to start.

Since I had earlier that I spent time with myself today, I didn't touch any of my schoolwork this afternoon. It's wrong of me to do that and I know that. Now is still not too late to face up to reality so I should not run away from it. Face up to it Krystal! To make myself study, I shall give myself one motivation which is study smart now until poly life ends so that I can get myself out of this quick. Why study smart so that poly life can end faster? It's simple. If I don't and i failed any subjects I have to repeat another semester or a year. Nothing like that will I want it to happen to me. I want to end this fast in three years (minus four weeks since it had already past).

Growing up in this type of family had taught me what not to teach to my future children. Definitely there's a lot of 'not-to' and also a lot of 'what-to' to teach them. Being farsighted now. Each day seems like a day for me to learn to be an adult and also each day is a learning process of discovering who I really am. Lastly, each day will be better if there's no school! WOO HOO! However without schooling, there's no knowledge. Without knowledge, there's no future for me.

The 'I want my alone time' is still in my head now. Dianny told me future & my dreams will motivate me. Feeling better now :D

they made my night perfect, as always ((:

HAHAHAH! Had a great time laughing today at plaza singapura! Minus the thing about the guys critizing me. Agree that i put on alot of weight for the past one month. LOL. A fact is a fact man.

Dinner at Hot Tomato (((((: Lamp chop! Nice man! Laughing and chatting at the tables. Cheryl eating coin(s), mao eating note(s)! LOL. Inside jokes. FUNNY LAH! "Zhuang wo hai zui sen me zui lah". Mentioned something myself and i laughed like crazy man. Think that my face turned red. It's been such a long time since i laughed so happily man! :DDDD Bet the guys had a great time talking about me-.- Lol. I laughed at myself too even though it's insulting. LOL. Besides that, I really had a very great day with these friends. ! Seriously, I hope that there's more of such today so I can enjoy myself more with the companion of my friends :D Those i know for a few years, of course!

Just a short post. I don't know if anyone will read those lengthy posts even though i enjoyed typing out chunks of paragraphs (: I'll settle for this short one today. My brain can't think/ proccess anything out to type now. Tired :( woke up at 6.40am today for lesson:(

nights! I miss my friends:( June holidays!!!!!

WOOTS! I changed my font okay like finally. LOL. So now Sijia can read better right? haha. Was actually tempted to change it to font size 5 instead of the original size 7. HAHAH. Strain everyone's eyes on reading my post =/ I bet when all of you wear specs, everyone will blame it on me. HAHAHA.

Sch's alright today. Pretty short days on Mon, Tues and fri. Second day of week 4 of school today and it's over. Had a good laugh during tutorials today. Lab lesson at 9am tmr :( Which means i have to wake up by 6.40 tmr :'( I dislike lessons in the morning. Tmr is one example. But for fri, it's different because lessons end at 1pm! However for tmr, I'll be in sch from almost 12 hours. LOL. Lessons from 9 to 6 and after that I'll be going to the school's Crusade For Christ with ade. I've no idea what time will it end. Probably till 8? I hope it won't be too late.

The person called for training for work but ade and I won't be free tmr so we'll wait till he calls again. If not we'll call him. Hopefully we'll get the job. Told Dianny that since I want to spend more, I should earn it myself (: Nice chatting with her though :D

Mum's 'cute' just now. I asked her to write a cheque for yuping,ade and my nyaa fees for gold. And because of my poor usage of chinese, she misinterpret my words. Here's how the converstaion went. Pardon me for my hanyupinyin.

Me: Mameee. Bang wo xie cheque for nyaa gold. i yao zhuo gold.
Mum: HUH!!! Ni yao zhuo ghost?
Me: mei you lah. Wo yao na gold for nyaa.
Mum:Chey. Hua yu yong chi yao yong hao yi dian mah. Xia si wo. Hai yi wei ni yao qu dang ghost.

LOL. funny lah she. She told me the correct usage but i forgot what is it about. It's about 10 months since i touched mother tongue can? She can't expect me to remember everything. No wonder my chinese deproved like what all these years. She always use chinese for her work and writes in chinese characters that's why she can't possibly forget chinese. haha.

PICTURESSSS!


Sat at gwc mac

phishy test




Sun at Iluma

my frozen yogurt + aloe vera, mashmallow & grapes :D
a little sour but NICE :D I want to eat it again!

ade's



krys on the left and ade on the right. LOL


Will post some of my class girls pic next time. Got to do research now. SIAN :( I hate school hmwk! :(

It's monday today! NO WAY MAN! :( Start of a brand new week with no idea what is coming up for me. Any new changes? any surprises? or any wish come true? I'm going closer to 3 years.LOL.

Supposed to be monday post but it's already past midnight. It doesn't matter anyway cause who will post tue's happening at this time when it hardly start? Took some pictures today but I'm tired to post it up now. Most of them are at fb though.

Seriously I'm having doubts whether my cousins will pay a visit to singapore this year. I just have a hunch that they won't be coming even though they said they will. I've no idea. Maybe they had changed their minds which made me feel this way. Anyway didn't hear anything from them so I guess nothing is change yet. So I shan''t waste away my time feeling this way. Be optimistic right? :D

After so many days/weeks, I still hope june holidays will be here soon! I miss hanging out with KZP talking about all those funny mispronounciation and of course thinking of when we'll hang out again. Oh gosh. I miss guides :( Every fri wearing my smart blue uniform and assembling in front of the noticeboard by 2.15pm. And of course not forgetting the blowing of whistles :D And above all these, I missed the recuit camp because of the last minute trip to Perth :( Stupid feeling came back after about 1.5 years. Idiot. If you're smart, you'll know what feeling I'm talking about.

I'm pretty tired now so nights everyone! (:

WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO! I'm a little high now for no apparent reason. On the other hand, I'm feeling a little fustrated and sad. That's because sch's in and weekends are out :(((( And it's also because tp didn't say that tmr is a public holiday for us. Kind of a good thing also because we need not arrange another time for tutorial. haha.

Today's morning is funny. Went for a job interview. LOL. nine bucks! feel so damn cheated. but if ade and i did manage to get the job, it's still alright luh. If didn't, i'll go work at my kor kor workplace. Daddy is afraid that i might give up studying and go work so he reminded me to study and get at least a diploma. He knows that i don't like my course lah. Popo reminded me to study hard also. I knew that dad will tell the whole family i'm looking for a job cause apparently my uncle knows i'm finding also. LOL.

short post today :D Not lengthy. heh. off to do other things! WOOTS!

School's better today as compared to yesterday. During MicroEcons tutorial today, eight of my class girls including me were sitting in a row. It's such a coincidence that all eight of us were wearing either black, grey or white. For those who wore grey, like me, happened to sit next to each other. Total of three grey ones. So funny when the girls behind us noted these. Comm Skills tutorial next. Was freezing throughout the lesson. Can't take it and wore my sweater. Lesson ended about 30mins earlier and 11 of my classmates, including me, went to have lunch at kfc near tampines mall.

Sat with three girls; Ching Hong, Si Jia and Rizky. Rizky was sitting beside me and the other two opposite us. Both of us were hearing the other two talking about their creepy sec school. Suicidal cases, haunted houses and ppl who were possessed etc.. All four of us had goosebumps on us though. LOL. who won't when they hear about those things? But the funny thing is that we were laughing while talking while the other 7 were eating. Some turned and looked at us though. haha. So i guess God answered my prayer of letting me interact with my classmates.

Today's a Friday so I have two days off from school :D YEAH! but why is it so not fair that we can't have mon off while other poly have it? Anyway, ade and I are bringing our laptops out tmr and of course to do hmwk. Tutorials is not of a rush but I have to start on my projects soon. However, groupings are not set yet so I can't get much done yet. crap.

Oh gosh! Guess what I'm thinking now? I'm imagining myself shopping/ looking at clothes. Silly thought i know. I need to get a job soon. Sian. Anyway, watched gossip girl ep 23 alrdy. I'm waiting for more of it to watch. HAHA.

Got to go pack/throw away sec books later on. It's blocking my space in the room. Intending to put a short study table there so that i can do my hmwk and other stuffs there. Need to find/buy two table lamps soon. One for my table and another beside my bed. The one beside my bed spoilt after one/two years. Kinda not use to not have a lamp beside my bed. Need one for my table cause it's kinda poorly lit here so I can't do my hmwk at easily. I have a huge study table of my own at the living room but 3/4 of it is filled with things from my room :/ haha. stuff it there for the time being. That's why I have a limited space to do hmwk.

It's already night time but the temperature is still very very warm. Going to drink some cold drinks now and pack my stuffs till after midnight or something. At least do smth constructive for myself this weekend. I don't want to waste it away doing nothing. BYE!

p.s no email from community service yet so i don't have a cca at the moment. Kinda irritating cause I can't get my own time-table done yet. haha.

YES! My dad allows me to go KL provided that I have the money. So now I'm looking for a job to supply myself with the money I need. Just two months. I think the pay will be just enough for the trip though. LOL.

When I have a job, I'll be even more busy. Busy with CCA, NYAA, YOG, sch christian meet-up, job, sch work, sch projects. Really very busy. LOL. But at least I'm doing things that i love, apart from sch work and projects. I don't know what I'll be working as so I won't know whether I'll love/like my job. CCA and the sch christian meet-up is not complusory so at least I need not stress over these two. However I believe that I'll enjoy these two activities so I doubt I'll miss much.

At the starting of this week, all my subjects seem to be very alien to me. Now accounting and principal of management are alright but I can't say the same for MircoEcons. It's still alien to me. Now I need to find the statistics for Comm Skills even though my group didn't ask me to and also to start knowing more about MicroEcon so that I can do my tutorials for tmr morning tutorial. I'm killing myself because school is starting at 9am tmr and I need to leave home by 7.30am. I should be in bed by now.

Have been really tired for the past few days but didn't manage to get in bed by 11pm. Disappointed by my own weak will to do so. Sch's ending at 1pm tmr. Lunch with classmates and then head over to Outram to get the form for blood donation for my parents to sign. I hope I'm alright to donate blood lah. Bless me man.

Sch's like abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz cause she didn't let us have a day off next mon for Vesek Day. So unfair!!! Perhaps once i say this, teacher will tell us tmr that we'll have next mon off! LOL. If that is so, there's a need to have a comm skill make-up lesson. So troublesome. Anyway, I won't mind a make-up lesson just so that I have another day off from sch and a longer weekend this week :D I know my words will come true *cross fingers*

Got to go do my sch work. SEEYA :D Bless me for whatever I'm doing will ya? Thanks(:

I'm getting tired. Really very tired. How i wish i could end it all off.

Aunty Lilian asked mum how i've been doing in poly. Told mum that I don't like it at all. Mum encouraged me by telling me that it's because i'm not coping well. Dad said that too and that i'll cope better when i know more friends.

This is really a very difficult phase in my life. I rather study for exams with my old classmates till 21 than studying in a new environment till 21. Must the government do such a torturous thing in order to prepare us for the workforce?

Seriously, I feel really not me when I'm with my classmates. I just can't bring myself to be Krystal. I hate this.

I just ranted about school again. idiot :(

Hate this. Don't like a single bit :(

FINALLY IT'S GOING TO BE THURS TMR! Meaning just two more days to the weekend! I'm super duper excited about it. I can't imagine that i'd already survived three days of school. After the end of this week I still have to suffer for two years plus ten over donkey weeks in school. Not a nice figure of how-many-days-left-suffering-in-school. I count everyday as it comes. So not looking forward to school.

Lessons today apart from lab, is super duper boring. Took a short few sec nap during the first lecture. For both lectures I'd been yawning non-stop. Imagaine how boring it is. :((((((

Projects and tests are stacking up tutorials after tutorials. I HATE THOSE. But ohwell, those things are to prepare me for the workforce. Might as well suffer now than later right? Oh gosh! Can you believe it? I'm doing my homework for tutorials and I'm going to start studying everyday, provided that I won't be knock out when I reach home from school. Wish me luck (:

Great Singapore Sales (GSS) is starting at the end of this month & I'm so not getting into the festive mood to shop. The money I'm saving is to return my mum and to save for the trip to KL. My mum doesn't even shop and she won't give me money to shop. And the worst thing of all is that i've never been out shopping with my mum since at least six years ago. How pathetic :( But GSS or no GSS doesn't make a huge different isn't it? I won't know except when the time comes. Anyway, I'm going to reach my goal to save at least $80 by the end of may. I know that's little but at least I'm saving right? Once again, wish me luck (:

Exactly one more month later and the sem tests will be over and followed by two weeks of break! I'm so looking forward to it. Meeting KZP! WOOHOO! Since it's a holiday, school will always dampen our moods right?

Yeah. There's project to be done with. CSA individual project. Teachers always say that holidays are for us to catch up. Ya right. When I really did study throughout the school term until I have no rest I see no reason why I can't rest for two short weeks.

At the end of the day, school still stinks like abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.

Wolverine

Caught Wolverine on sat. Nice movie (: Watched with ade and tang. Before that, Ade passed me econ notes and taught me econs. LOL. test me somemore :P Took some pics when i'm done doing most of my hmwk :/




cool? HAHA.






Enough of pictures. Let me continue with my post.

Today's the beginning of the third week of school. Just as when things are picking up, I just don't want to study and just quit school. Foolish idea i know. I'm not going to do that of course. In singapore, nothing is more impt than education... On the brighter side, i got to know more of my classmates. Things are getting along pretty well, i guess.

Since school started, there's only two words to describe the 'gift' school gives us. Yes right. It's "hell" and "homework". Tutorials hmwk to be done. Oh great. Just give me some time to adapt doing hmwk and studying again after 5 months. I just don't like to even think about all these things but hell yes, I'm a Singaporean studying in Singapore. Poly sch fees are much more ex than the other instituitons. Transportation too. Fair system. hmm... Okay i know i'm being sarcastic at the last part.

On a shorter note, nothing motivates me to go school every mon to fri. Nothing. If only i have the ability to lock myself away from the education system and live in my own world. If only. However, once fri passed i'll have sat and sun to spend at my own freewill :DDDD That's the only thing i'm looking forward to. And i believe that's what most of you are thinking about also. right?

): I just finished reading the last book of twilight saga(breaking dawn) at 1.30am ): Now I have nth except to study and finish tutorials at night. I hate thinking about that. It does nothing but spoils my mood totally. Also i hate posting everytime regarding school! eeeediot.