I figured it out that i must post my thoughts now if not i won't be able to have a peaceful night/sleep later on. Also, this post is dedicated for myself to entertain my own thoughts. So don't bother to read.

There's this part of me that is feeling hollow. I don't know what i'm missing about and what exactly am i feeling hollow about. It's something else besides missing my old friends and always talking in class. Seriously i want to know what it is all about.

Adding on, there's also this guilt of myself that i've been carrying around for quite a long time. I did not even complete a single thing that i had set out to do before my O lvl. None of it. How disappointing is that :( Totally disappointed with myself. No one but myself. I brought this upon myself so there's no one else to blame except me. That's right.

I shan't continue here. It had been months since i penned down my thoughts in my diary. I will do that provided that i can find my diary among all those boxes and also whether i'm clear headed later on to write my feelings down.

Anw, i'm feeling empty now cause i've ran out of books in my house to read. I've been reading almost every night after i quit my job and now there's really nothing much for me to do to feel a bit more whole before i fall into my nightmare dreams again.

my english sucks :( i bet those eng freaks out there who might happen to read my post will be correcting my grammar, verbs, etc everytime they read my post.