better and hopes

School's better today. Almost for the whole APEL lesson, my class was laughing all the way. One guy said intimacy is smth inappropriate in lec/tut. He said something like 'of course it's inappropriate if not couple making out in class is acceptable is it?' I can't really remember the whole conversation entirely but it's damn funny conversation between my teacher and my classmate. Anyway, there's some improvements for me in class :D

1. I talked to more people today (:
2. Said some things that made my group laugh.
3. Left my worksheet and pen on someone's table and forgot to take it back when i turned back to my seat. Forgot totally when i returned to my seat. stupid me.
4. I had difficultity carrying my chair back to my seat and someone offered to take it for me.

It isn't a good idea for me to post up the improvements of my interaction with class. Now is not the time for it. At least my readers out there won't be bored about reading the alike topic for each post since school started.

There's only three things i wish to have now.

1. Best friends and me to get along well with our classes.
2. Cousin to come to sg after during my holidays and not school days. ( I don't know when he's
coming though) good timing please.
3. Save $80 by end of may. (possible?)

Anyway, if my cousin comes during my holidays what can i do? He's a guy and i'm a girl. Most probably my elder/younger bro will bring him out. There's a limit to what i can bring him to though. I can't go clubbing but my elder bro can. I can't bring him shopping all these also. haha.

Lesson tmr at 9a.m. CSA lab. Sleeping soon. Nights (:

God please help those who are in need.


So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

I try to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking

I figured it out that i must post my thoughts now if not i won't be able to have a peaceful night/sleep later on. Also, this post is dedicated for myself to entertain my own thoughts. So don't bother to read.

There's this part of me that is feeling hollow. I don't know what i'm missing about and what exactly am i feeling hollow about. It's something else besides missing my old friends and always talking in class. Seriously i want to know what it is all about.

Adding on, there's also this guilt of myself that i've been carrying around for quite a long time. I did not even complete a single thing that i had set out to do before my O lvl. None of it. How disappointing is that :( Totally disappointed with myself. No one but myself. I brought this upon myself so there's no one else to blame except me. That's right.

I shan't continue here. It had been months since i penned down my thoughts in my diary. I will do that provided that i can find my diary among all those boxes and also whether i'm clear headed later on to write my feelings down.

Anw, i'm feeling empty now cause i've ran out of books in my house to read. I've been reading almost every night after i quit my job and now there's really nothing much for me to do to feel a bit more whole before i fall into my nightmare dreams again.

my english sucks :( i bet those eng freaks out there who might happen to read my post will be correcting my grammar, verbs, etc everytime they read my post.

School started again today. Things went pretty smooth when lesson started at one. Finally i interacted with my classmates more! WOO HOO! I guess things are pretty much picking up on its own. God answered part of my prayers already (:

Took an almost two hours bus ride from tampiness to harbourfront. COOL :D Dinner-ed with ade,mich,phoebe,xx. Even though it's almost five hours after i'd eaten my dinner, I still feel very bloated. Usually i'll be hungry so i guess i really had my fill this time. It's very comforting to see old friends again! Just like how it used to be before poly starts (:

Swine flu is on the spread... I don't like the feeling of another epidemic. The world isn't in a state to start worrying for this while recession is still hitting people. So people, take care of yourself.

Finished reading eclipse and soon i'll move over to breaking dawn. No, wrong. Not soon. Next week :( I can't bring myself to buy another book when i know i'm suppose to save. I even feel guilty spending on food :( But but but, there's really a urge to go continue reading the last book for twilight saga. Blame it all on myself. why didn't i plan? Guess if i say it out what, you'll probably say things like i brought it upon myself, blah blah blah... But you won't come to my blog either so forget it.

I miss going out just like what i did during the long holidays. I don't mind 'suffering' during work just so that the last few months could come back. So long as i get to spend time with people I know for years, I don't mind suffering a little for that. Just as long as i feel that it's worth it, why not?

There's this very strong feeling overcoming me now. I have been and is still trying hard to identify this feeling in me. It's like all kinds of feelings i'm feeling right now. Unfortunately, everything eventually leads me to being unhappy, once again. argh! Hate this.

Plan(s) for today (25/04) didn't make it. cmi. Yp had an online discussion for comm skills. So what did ade and i do today? bet you'll guess shopping but you're wrong. HAHA. WE WENT TO NATIONAL MUSEUM OF SINGAPORE. believe it or not? it's up to you but we really did go there. There's photos as prove but i won't upload it now. maybe next time.

Pretty interesting to know singapore's history and i've always been interested in it. (I even bought a book on WWII on singapore though :D ) I spent more time in the section of WWII.

There's this card which affects me a little. It stated on it that a couple has 2 children alive and 2 dead. A little anger overcame me then. It's upsetting that war had affected children and cost them their lives when they barely live enough to see the world out there.

Hot tomato-ed for late lunch/early dinner :D I learnt to have a better grip and cut better using the eating knife. Thanks to ade. If i didn't learn it properly now, i'll most probably stick to fish and chips when i'm eating out next time if there's a need to use knife to eat. See how badly i cut my own food. It's pretty serious huh? HAHA. BEWARE! My steak might fly at you anytime. Anyway, I cut using my left when i'm right-hander (: I guess there's quite a number of you out there who does that. Perhaps it's the correct method for cutting.

I hope school's better on monday. I want an interesting life in my new school. But still i hope i'm still in qtss.

I miss everything back in qtss, serious. I don't mind fracturing my ankle or feeling very down during the time in qtss. It's better than everything i'm experiencing now. I miss Quest Guides. I miss all my friends. gah! Shall not continue ranting about school cause it'll be almost the same every post then.

Quest Guides' campfire please come soon! I'm looking forward for it! Gathering around and singing songs. Moving along with the rhythm and doing the actions. oh gosh! I really miss those times.....

YES! YES! YES! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY! WOOHOO! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! One week of school had passed! YES! I'm always looking forward to weekends now. urgh. I don't want school to start.

Anyway, I'm still utterly confused & angry with myself. Angry for not making a swift decision about my own future. Why in this world did this have to happen to me? Why me? argh! I hate myself. God please give me answers to my queries and troubles soon. I'm getting sick of everyday's life in school. This week is the only week of all the many years I'd live that is so sickening, tired, unhappy, devastating. Something that's unhappy about is it's only one week out of the three years. abcdefg

Looking on a brighter side, I'm going to learn roller blading tomorrow with yuping & ade :D I'll try my best to learn and not be afraid of twisting my ankle because of that old fracture :/




I've tried and i really do.
I've been asking everyday but i haven't gotten my answers.
I've been so sick of myself and i really hate myself for that.
I've no desire to study anymore because of what things are happening now.
I've given myself a week to understand everything but things aren't going well. Is that the answer?
I truly hate myself.

Shan't continue with my crappings today. I have a long date with eclipse for a few days/week(s) and then a longer date with breaking dawn. Those books and notes lying on my table aren't a bit appealing/interesting to me. KRYSTAL and them doesn't click together. We belong to a different world.

goodbye world. My date(eclipse) is waiting for me.

Woots! I'm happy today. The most happiest day of my life since school. eh no. The second happiest day. Spending alone time at home reading is the happiest :D HAHA. Why am i happy huh?

1. Ate lunch with classmates
2. Talked to Classmates
3. Had dinner with Ade and Cheryl
4. Bought Eclipse
5. Most probably new maid in two weeks time
6. Hear mum talk about things
7. Gossip Girl episode 21 is out.
8. Going home with Yuping & ade tmr!

How can i not be happy when so many things are happening today?

Yesterday was a high-and-low day for me. Felt very confuse about my course as i really have no idea what to do with it. MANY THANKS TO JIAYIN & YUPING! woots! thanks man! prayed to God and he's answering my prayers and i'm glad i prayed to him! :D

So many things are rushing through my brain now. Mix feelings too. There's really too many and i shan't say all out. Only the main ones(:

I missed secondary school life. Especially my guides' mates! I MISS THEM ALOT! Hasn't seen them for ages already. Hoping now that we're meet up soon, which will be in June ): June is still ages away man!

New maid's coming & i'm really glad! I shall not suffer through eating out just like the past few months :D YAY! Mum said the earliest is by the week after next. I hope it's true. I wanna save money. I'm not gonna do my part to save recession by spending more. What else is there to end this recession thing fast? Seriously it's fustrating to see people rushing home after work, shopping malls with not many people on weekdays.Lesser than the past.

Done praying to God. Going to some other things now. BYE!

Listened to God's words today. Helped me alot. Really alot. I became more positive about school after service today. Made a wise choice to go there after all ((: Now i'm more cheerful & happy. And since yesterday night till now, everything seemed to turn out what i wanted it to be :D Good for me huh? HAHA. Finally finally finally i'm more cheerful and smiling because i truly mean it. haha. saw two actors/hosts at expo. shocked to see them.

School's starting tmr and there's only break during june. Before the break, there's exams :( Why must school be sure a torture? "it's for your own good. To prepare you for the society." True & i'm willing to take the challenge head on. Who knows? I mights turn out to like my course :D Now i'm kinda looking forward to school tmr cause i want to talk to my classmates. interact with them. Most importantly be myself. Ade, i won't burp in front of them & i won't say they're praising themselves they're hot. haha. I have self-control. I know what i'm saying now is a 180 degrees turn to yesterday's post. THANK GOD!

Bought New moon. I'm gonna start reading it within the next half an hour. Pretty sure that i'll enjoy the book. However i'm still looking for the two books that i want. summer girls & homecoming. Both by Catrin Collier. No idea where to buy it cause it's already out in the market for about seven years. I really really want to get a hold on these two books so i can read the previous & after in that book series. People please tell me if you know where i can find them. please please please. (as if anyone reads this blog. so i'm calling out to myself to open my eyes bigger & look for them.)

I might go service again next sun :D

Seriously, for once in my entire orientation life, my orientation is boring and yes not very rewarding. There's not much bonding done and all we did is to cheer. Way to boring. Affects my mood like nobody business. Everything is so dead.

Really don't like this.

I don't like what i've turn to -The almost anti-social Krystal-Amelia Wong. What i want to do now is to surround myself with books, in a air-conditioned room and read for all i want. Most importantly is for school not to start & also to get out of my current life. I want to get out of here but i know i can't. It's impossible to do that. I just have to get that out of my mind and think positively for school. I tried and told myself that for countless of times but my mood is so overwhelming that i keep feeling very moody.

ecp-ed today. Wanted to bring fried fishballs but ended up with boiled fuzhou fishballs. Partlly cause i went to the market late and another is my maid can't even fried. no no no. She doesn't even know what is fried cause she had never done that in her entire 30 plus years before. That's what she told me.

Planned to learn roller-blading today but i really have no mood to learn something new. I think i might be fustrated if i can't do what i was going to learn today. Afterall i'm really very very very moody.

Woke up unwilling by my house phone ringing this morning. Can't go back to sleep so continued to read twilight. By the way, i fell asleep last night while reading twilight & i left my lights on. Got scolded :'( Anyway, i had finally finished reading twilight this morning! I'm going to move on to new moon soon. soon...... Three options for me. 1-borrow from the library. 2- plead mum to buy it for me. 3- save up. However i'm not leaving my options open. Going to try option 2 first. I know it's unfillial for me to do this but that's what my feeling tells me to and i doubt she'll give me the money also. Okay i just asked my mum after finishing typing the previously sentence. guess what? She agreed to buy it for me! WOOHOO! Yes! finally smth to lit up my oh-so-pathetic mood :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Mum said i must read the book after i buy it. I guess she agreed to buy it for me cause i've been reading alot these few weeks. Books after books ((((: I'm a introvert no longer a extrovert..

Initially i didn't want to blog this much so i did the quiz below. However i began to rant after my second paragragh and ended this post begin soo long. But i'm not going to care about it cause i don't bother what other thinks about this long post. And i ain't going to delete the random quiz cause i took time & effort to do it cause Shun An tagged me in fb.




1. Spell your name without an E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N,T,B

WOG X U

2. Are you single?
definitely :D

3. What is your favourite number?
eight

4. What is your favourite color?
pink. but it changes from day to day now.

5. Least favourite color?
none

6. What are you listening to now.
to my own inner conflict.

7. Are you happy with your life right now
not exactly.

8. Are you involved with anyone?
no

9. What is your favourite subject in school?
geog? math?

Do you have money?
yes. who doesn't?

Where do you wish you were right now?
Anywhere but sg. Venice will be nice

If you had to get a tattoo, where would you want it? and what would it be?
at my back. never thought of the design before.

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble? --- no?
Can you do a cart wheel? --- no?
Can you touch your toes?--- yes
Can you wiggle your ears? --- no.
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? --- no

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? --- yes
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? --- yes
Did you ever want to be a teacher? --- yes

THE DOs:
Do you like rollercoasters? ---kinda yes
Do you own a bike? --- no
Do you play the lotto? ---no
Do you like watching football? --- not really. but it's a nice experience watching it
Do you have a shopping addiction? --- definitely! when i'm in a good mood though

THE DOES:
Does your family have family picnics? --- no. Never in my life before :(
Does your wallet have any pics in it? --- pic on ez-link, i/c & tp card counted?

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? --- ade
Last car ride? --- in aussie
Last baby you held? --- toddler jayden :D

LAST THING:
What was the last thing you bought? --- dinner
What was the last thing you had drink? --- dinosaur milo
What was the last thing you watched? --- shinjuku movie
What was the last thing you read? --- twilight. finally!
What was the last thing you hand wrote? --- books that i want on my whiteboard!

THE WHOS:
Who last talked to you on the phone? --- jia yin
Who was/were the last person(s) you took a picture of? --- ade
Last person to leave you a comment? --- no idea who
Who do you miss right now? --- Yusof bin Ishak. pic on the money! LOL.
Who last hugged you? --- aunt lilian?

CURRENTLY:
What colour shirt are you wearing? --- red
Have any tattoos? --- no!
Have you any piercings? --- yes
Straight hair or curly? --- quite straight
Where are you right now? --- home

HAVE YOU EVER:
Failed a class? --- meaning?
Sang in front of a crowd? --- solo? NO WAY!

THREE RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. In a relationship? no
2. Want a relationship? no
3. Wanna get married? yes

FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. when will this stupid feeling abt sch get out of me!
2. when will my mood be back to how it used to be!
3. when can i get my books!
4. when can i get out of sg!

When was the last time you really laughed?
no idea. been really moody these few days :'(

Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
no

Who knows a big secret about you?
Krystal-Amelia Wong knows

How long is your hair?
you don't expect me to measure that right?

When was the last time you sang out loud?
time when back in guides. I miss those times ALOT :(

What did you have for breakfast?
prawn beehoon soup

Is your birthday on a holiday?
yes. Teachers' Day.

What instant messaging service do you use?
Msn

Are you signed on it right now and if so, who are you talking to?
sign in but appear offline. I'm in hibernation. Don't really want to talk. this sucks man! :(

Can you cook?
you're asking the obvious! The ans is NO! I can only cook instant food ( campbell & instant noodles) I'm going to learn okay!

Did you have a nap today?
no

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
short though

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
4B'08 class tee :D

Do you have any regrets?
yes. alot! If i could turn the clock back, i'll not repeat my regrets again. But i know it's impossible.

Do you use an alarm clock?
phone alarm.

Where was your default Facebook picture taken?
great world female toilet

What's the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
face

Who would you like to see right now?
once again. Yusof Bin Ishak. pic on the money! HAHA

Are you a social or antisocial person?
currently in my mood now i'm an antisocial person.

Have the cops ever come to your house?
my mum's shop though

Do you have a tan?
yes. still have the tanline on me

Ever had braces?
no. but i always wanted to have braces

Are you afraid of the dark?
a little

Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
meaning?

What's your favourite commercial at the moment?
nothing attracts me

Do you always wear your seat belt?
no unless in aussie

Who of the opposite sex do you have feelings for?
none

Do you like American Idol?
not really

How do you feel about piercings and tattoo?
nothing

Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
yes!

What is your favorite fruit?
watermelon? mangosteen?

Does anyone love you?
no idea but i think/hope my parents do.

Where is one place you want to visit?
Venice

Have you ever crawled through a window?
no. i'm not so stupid to climb out of my house windows

Are you a morning person or a night person?
night

Are you a forgiving person?
yes. I usually don't get angry for long unless you really provokes me like abcdefg

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
no. never been to mexico before

Who was the last person to smoke a cig in your presence?
dad

Are you taller than 5'6?
definitely no

Ever threw up?
yes,in china. one week after o lvl ended. the stupid yam and long bus rides! imagine having all eight dishes made of yam for lunch. YUCKS!

Ever had a crush on a teacher?
erm. i don't think so

Ever been punched in the face?
yes. when i fought with my brothers when we're young

Ever punch someone?
same ans as the previous qn

Who were the 5 last people to text you?
- Ade
- Jia yin
- Yu Ping
- Jeremy
- Jonathan.F.W

First day of orientation and tmr's the last. I'm hoping for the best and i'm damn tired now. Shall bath and sleep. Maybe read some chapters before sleeping, provided that i'm more awake after the shower....

I'm too sad/ tired to even lift my fingers up to type. It feels so heavy all of a sudden. That explains my mood today. Right now it's all the negative things passing through my head. All the 'what if'. omg! I can't even stand my own feelings. I might get emotional man, before my sleep. Lack of sleep=think too much. I hate myself for making myself feel this worse in my whole 16 plus life. I was thinking positively a while ago & now i'm too tired to fight mentally against my inner conflict.

Simple and short. Summarize most of my inner thoughts today.

Goodbye & wish me luck tmr.

I don't ever see myself trusting my mum's words ever ever again. She doesn't even keep to her own promises and she expect me to keep to mine huh? But most of the time i do do what i said i will. Just only this time i didn't and she's condemning me like a criminal who does all the evil things. Speaking to me in a harsh and loud tone. If she speaks to me this way, just in this world does she expect me to respect her again?

Seriously fuming since yesterday. Does she know the real reason why i wanted to go perth? (Actually no one does. I didn't say to anyone.) Even if she know the real reason, will she feel even anything? The next time I'm a mum i won't ever ever allow my children to live the life i'm living now. See how serious it is? Doesn't she understand at all?

I had already shut my com down but once i think about this, i can't help it and want to ratter all out. I did rather everything out but not in this blog. Maybe i need some ice to help me cool down. Perhaps she doesn't even care.

Don't hide anything from me cause i won't like it.

I'm kinda out of myself today. Planned to go tiong today but now it's raining so i shall forget about it. Kor's going to Perth tmr so i must pass all the things to him by tonight. Read through some of my archieves and i feel kinda lame at myself for no reason. Once again, today is totally not myself. Should i say this few weeks? I feel kinda boring to blog everyday. Why in this world did i blog everyday for? I used to blog for a few times a month only & not everyday. I shall do what i used to. Seriously, for the third time, I'm feeling realy sucky & i don't know why.

I WANT TO WATCH HORROR MOVIE! GET ON THE FLYER!

ARGH! THIS FEELING SUCKS! Why is this happening to me? It's saturday man! I should be happy but I'm not. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Nothing cheers me up. Maybe a horror movie will do?!?!? mid-night movie? ))))))))):

This is really sucky!

Guess where i went today from the above picture! Iluma! LOLS. I know it's lame. Just typing out what just came to my mind. There's nothing wrong trying to speak what's on my mind now right? haha. So yup. Went out with 4B'08 guides w/o gab today! Wee~ We didn't see each other for only a week but it seems for a long time. lol

Walked around bugis and those who wanted to buy things didn't buy any cause nothing catches their eyes. Ate ice-cream. I said i wanted Lettisssh chocolate cone & the lady gave me chocolate flavour ice cream on a cone. Those who were with me knows what i mean -.- nvm.

ChengTing, Yu ping & Jia yin went to play the 'catch the ice cream' game at the arcade while glenda and i watched. They wanted to catch the ben & jerry ice cream but to no avail. lol. But there's a couple who caught two of it. haha.

took some pictures at the side of the arcade with some cartoon characters. More pictures in Jy's cam (:

Anyway, i got to pack all the things ready for my elder brother to bring to perth for my aunt. He's leaving the day after tmr which is on Brandon Urie's brithday hor ade. haha. 12 april. It's easter day too! I'm envying my bro going to perth with his friends & at cheap rates too! I WANT TOO! ): I want to go overseas with my friends and literally shop till i drop ahem dead. haha.

I can't type on the phone fast now cause my thumb is hurting. some sort of numb & with a little of trembling/ shaking. think i stress it too much. shall be sms-free for the next free days. yesno?







Doraemon! Glenda & i were inside. haha





seeyatill the day comes (:

I HATE PEOPLE SLAMMING/ HITTING ON MY DOOR LOUDLY!!!!

PICTURES!!!

LOL
Ade & i were talking on msn ytd & we so happened to type out the same sentence.
Laughed our heads off! HAHA. so coincidental lah.



Knocking/hammering & screwing!
Ade & i doing up my table(: Screwed & hammered from 5 to 7 (:
Considered quick hor. Laughed here & there, think there & here. LOL






End Product (:

Illuma
Saw a familiar face on that day. ex-teacher. Gave me the shock of my life!

Long escalator at Illuma. 1st to 4th storey.


Fans of David Archuleta

Archuleta at the bottom right.


Archuleta (:

Room
Before rearranging & after half of the packing. Imagine only half of the packing & it's still messy. What will the before look like huh? haha





I shall post up my before & after room photos after everything is done. There & then i'll see a huge difference(: excited!

YES!YES!YES!YES!YES! I finally got my table! WOOHOO! Thanks Ade man! <33 Ade helped me with the carrying & of course screwing this and that for my table! Can't feel any happier in my entire holiday man! Now my room look more spacious & i kinda like the feeling even though it's still untidy lah. New design = new life :D haha. KRYS' theory (: But now the area at my com is kinda dark so i will need a table lamp. a clip-on table lamp. That means more money so i'm going to start saving all over again!

Shall upload the photos at a later time :D

Going to bugis again tmr. But this time round is with guides' friends but i don't know exactly who is going tmr. The only thing i know is that i can't spend on clothes anymore cause i've no money now. Kinda sad i know but at least i got some of the things i wanted lah. Goodluck to me on saving again(:

Anw i'm going to freshen myself up & continue packing & clearing my room. As i put the things a little by little, it seems to me that my dream is coming nearer & nearer (: KUDOS! :DDDDDDD

seeyatillthen!

I thought i could get over with my motion sickness but i think it's getting worse after i tried to read a book on the bus -.- stupid me. Shouldn't have done that in the first place... Please please motion sickness go away. I'm going to school by bus & it's gonna be a long ride ):

Anyway went to Illuma yesterday to catch a glimpse of David Archuleta. Ade & i have such a 'perfect view'. Right Ade? the butt & the up & down -.- lols. But it's the first time i see a singer. I only live once right? So i must try everything before i live my life in regret & passed away...

Bought almost everything Aunty Lilian had asked me to. Left with the chilli & herbal egg herbs. But i'm not sure whether my brother can bring the chilli into Perth. Their immigration check point is kinda strict. Anyway i wish upon a star that i can go Perth another time (: lol

Today is the day that i'm going to stay at home & pack. This time i mean it. Head was spinning last night but i couldn't sleep even when i wanted very much to do. Thought of a very crazy thing -Pack my room at midnight. Unfortunately i didn't. As i said, it's a crazy thing to do. I wouldn't want to pack until the wee morning. That will be way tooooo insane for me. After packing i might jolly well go over to tiong to pay for my ez-link & buying the remaing things(:

byebye. seeyatillthen(:

Here i am blogging pictures (:

Ade & i went to vivo to get her tank top and coincidentally, Daniel Wu & Jackie Chan is having their movie promotion there so we went to to take a look there. Pictures aren't clear i know. At least i have pictures(: haha





SENTOSA! woohoo~ more pictures with ade.

that is ade's shutter shades(:






Below are random pictures that i took today at home. lol

seriously i have no idea i bought so many this pens. why didn't they have 0.28 refills???? waste my money...




My youngest bro. He just came out from his shower & i asked him to take a pic with me. haha

younger bro. Asked him to take a pic with me but he refused-.- I don't think he is camera shy at all lah.


So i'm done with posting pictures & i have no idea what to do next on the com. Facebook? maybe. watch other dramas? nothing interesting like gossip girl. read a storybook? most probably will.

After all those rantings about going to get new books, i didn't go ): Instead i stayed at home to pack my belongings from my drawers into boxes. This is so that i can change my table fast. Packed some of my items which are below the windows. All those packings sounds like i'm moving house like that but i'm not. I'm just going to give my room a new look. Most probably i hope to place my order for my table by wed cause mum just gave me the money. So hopefully i'll get most of my room done by end of apr. If not paint my shelf units, pack my belongings & get the table in my room by end of next week. possible? *chants* yes i can. yes i can. yes i can.
"Doubt your doubts before you doubt your beliefs"

Okay so tomorrow i'm so going to have a hair cut. Decided to not cut bangs but slant for my fringe. I think it's long enough now. And then after that head to bugis for some shopping? & to Illuma after that to check out the mall & see David Archuleta. No idea if me & ade can see it anot. All the best of luck (:

seeyatillthen.

Said that i'll get some new books for myself but i guess i won't be doing it today. Just because of a very simply reason: I want to stay at home. Aiya. I'm confuse now. Perhaps, Maybe or At a spur of a moment, I might just hop into the bathroom take a bath & head down to the library or anchor point to get those books waiting for me. But hey, i do what i want to do right? Nobody is going to force me to do something i don't want to. So currently what i want to do is to stay at home. No one except myself will know what i want later on (: Who knows? Maybe i'll become a stay-at-home-girl at the end of this week :D Sounds interesting for me. haha. New and good experience.

To end this post, i shall say i'll continue to read my new storybook. (: && I might post some pictures up later on (: But who cares anyway? Not much people is reading my blog so all in all i'm just putting my memories here for my own reference in the future(:

byebye :D

p.s i want to eat eclair. whatever the spelling is.

So, i had read finish another book. haha. I don't know what's wrong with me but i like and feel like tugging away on my bed or my comfy chair to read a book. To be exact, those storylines catches me. I like romance novels so ya. which teenager doesn't huh? So i'm going to go hunting for books at anchor point or at the library tmr, alone :D perfect one isn't it? If i didn't see wrongly, one of the shops in anchor point is still having book sales & i bought some before leaving for perth last month. Isn't it nice to have a perfect time out alone? Didn't really had a chance to be alone outside during this five months of holidays. This mean that i'll spend more money ): Cause i kinda want to buy it instead of borrowing it. i know it's stupid but i don't know lah. Maybe i'll end up in the library after all. All because i don't know what to do if i have too many books.

okay enough of books. Ade missed call me this afternoon & i missed call her back. sent a msg to her & she called me but missed call again cause i was sleeping. Called her but she didn't pick so missed call her. telephone missed calling marathon? lols. wonder what she wants to say to me... hmm.. leave me a msg(:

found some videos regarding the book i posted up yesterday. you can watch it if you want by pressing on the word 'videos'. it's in some foreign language. Surf on the name for child who are missing & came upon a missing child name Medelaine. Can't rmb her full name. missing since may 2007. i hope she'll be found soon. stupid child kidnappers :@

Shall start reading a new book later. tada!

seeyatillthen (: nights!

p.s i'm kinda excited to read more books. LOL

Good news man! my spoilt power supply switch in my room can be used again! but oh well, too tired to be happy and to use it for a long time today. However, my fan's blade is spinning when it's plug is plug into that power supply(:

Sentosa-ed again in less than 3 weeks. My cheeks were red from the scorching sun today. Applied aloe vera & hazeline so now my face is tanned & a little pinkish (: But but but, both of my hands are so tanned that i can't believe i actually applied suntan lotion rather than sunblock. Why in this world would i do that? Because i want to get rid of the previous tan line i had when i went to sentosa(: So now i can gladly say that i've got the tanline i want & got rid of the old one :D lols. Never again will i apply sun tan lotion in the near future. haha

Today's weather at sentosa is great. So Ade got what she wanted (: Did what i usually do at sentosa. Nothing special. most of the pics are with ade & even if i have any i'll be lazy to upload it cause i'm damn damn tired ): Slept for four hours last night cause i stayed up to read finish one of my book till five in the morning (:

Interesting story. "I Choose to Live" by Sabine darbenne. It's a real life story of how Sabine(the author) was kidnapped at a mere age of 12 when she was on her way to school. Kidnapped by a group of man exporting prostitude overseas, with one being a sex maniac. Sabine wasn't spared from being a target of the sex maniac and was forced to have sex with that sicko man. She was 12 then back in 1996. Sabine was locked up for 80 days in a tiny room with some movements outside of that room. When she went missing posters of her were pasted all around Belgium looking for her. Yes, the story happened in Belgium. She was rescued when she asked for a friend as a companion. Police found out where her 'new friend' was from witness and coincidentally found Sabine as no one, expect the kidnappers, knew that Sabine was kidnapped with this newly kidnapped 14 yr old girl. When the police locked up the sex maniac, Sabine wasn't allow to see him until she turned 20. She didn't feel as uncomfortable as she was in the past but wanted the accused to look into her eyes when he was locked up and standing in front of her. However Sabine and the other girl wasn't the only being kidnapped. Sabine was the fifth one. The other four girls before her were all dead...

That's a brief summary of the story by myself but you have to read the book to really relate to Sabine's unfortunate encounter. Teared & feel pity for the tragedy of the other kids while reading this. Shan't continue talking about this book. I'm going to google about Sabine & off the com. tooooooo tired ): Might post the link up on my blog if i found something related to sabine's incident.

seeyoutillthen ((:

how great man! I only have two power supply in my room & one just spoilt this afternoon when i was abut ot charge my camera ): How on earth can i survive with only one power supply? Yesterday i was thinking of 'why can't i have my power supply at other part of my room' & wah la! one spoilt the next day ):

Went sch to collect sgc & headed to plaza singapura with 4B'08 minus gab to watch confessions of a shopaholic. Funny & nice show! MUST WATCH! i wonder when we'll be our next outing.. hmmm...

Tmr gonna go to sentosa so goodluck to me for no sunburning! haha.

i said i wanted to watch channel u horror movie so i am going to watch it now. so seeya!

random (:

I wanted to change a new blog skin. Tried finding a new one but i ended up preferring my current blogskin. It's soo much nicer than the ones i find. Guess i'll change another time instead :D

I've no idea what to blog now so whatever pops up on my mind at this moment will be posted out on this post.

Seriously i want a table in my room & i had already found one that i like at ikea. Mum wants me to pay for it cause i owe her the money. So she's paying for it luh but i can't possibly spent all the money i have on me now since i just gotten my pay check ytd. Still have not decided on the colour of it but i'll give it a serious thought cause it is going to last with me for quite a long time. maybe six years? Going to ask my mum whether she can pay for it first & i'll return her money slowly. I'm saving now, btw. Sick and tired my my current room deco. didn't arrange my furnitures for quite a long time & i don't like the fact that i didn't ):

Speaking of my going-to-be table is going to spent with me for six years later, where will i be six years later? Three years later i'll be graduating from tp will a diploma. After that i'll proceed to university. (which will be four years later) Hopefully i'll study in perth cause singapore's university is totally crazy and my aunt agrees with it. However my parents now hope that i'll study in sg uni. I know it's impossible for me given that my grades are always average. When i get into uni it will be four years later. When i graduate from there it will be about six or seven years later from 2009. oMG! 2015/2016? I'm going to be 21/22. I can't believe my eyes. so old ): If i'm studying overseas i think my new table will have a longer lifespan huh? cause i believe my things will be left untouch(hopefully). Maybe the table will live for ten years with me? who knows? maybe shorter?

Okay. I'm really talking randomly. Tmr will be back to qtss to collect my sgc. See ya there old friends :D

seeyatillanothertime(: