my lyfe is screwed up because of my STUPID LEG!i'm suppose to hav rehersal today & so TIS STUPID LEG of mine caused mi not to go.I'm so going to breakdown soon cos of my leg.i now its getting better BUT will i MAKE it to the camp? I WAN TO GO TO THE CAMP! i'll regret ALOT if i didn't go.wads the use of class tee if i didnit go? wads the use of camp tee if i didn't go?put it at home to wait for those bugs to eat it up?i'm soo not ok.since u said i've changed & so be it.I hav been VERY MOODY since the day i sprained my leg. everytime when i wan to walk, i'll think of those times i COULD REALLY WALK. hu cn i blame but myself.i feel lyk crying it all out.i'm suppose to b in polyclinic now.and ONCE AGAIN,my mum broke her promise.shld i say words?IT WAS HER HU CALLED MI TO GO FOR AN X-RAY.TO DO THIS TO DO TAT.AND IT WAS ALSO HER HU DASHED MY HOPE.I'm so going to die in tis world of mine.she said wait for another 3DAYS thn c how.wtf.3 DAYS!!!3 days means alot to mi.i could do alot of things.wait.did i hear wrongly.U DON ALLOW MI TO GO CAMP? wtf. I'm soo GOING TO OPPOSE ur 'command' tis time round.I WILL GO TO CAMP.i'm sure my leg is better by tt time.if i didn't go for camp, I WILL NOT GO TO SKOL NEITHER.either i go to camp or stay at home.its a TORTUROUS feeling to c all ur peers in camp & the pathetic u in skol?cn u imagine tt?i don lyk the feeling of it.i still hav 1 undone project & the deadline is tmr.i'm so going to die today.TIS STUPID LEG.WHEN CN U HEAL COMPLETELY?U'RE DRIVING MI MAD B4 1 COULD DRIVE U CRAZY.its really terrible.u cant drink cold drinks.u cant eat seafood.no spicy & sour stuffs.its realy terrible.i need chilli wif my fried rice but since i cant eat it, wads the joy in eating fried rice? i noe i'm moody today.i needa pour it all out.i cant stand it.so i think u gonna say i've changed again.after my leg is heal, everything will b fine again.seeing ppl march & i cant march.its soo. nvm.i used wtf in my post today?so i think i m really moody. did i use haas in my post?i didn't rite? so again. today i can't laugh after skol? i think so.i think i'm going to go siao again.cn i say it is a stress?stress of NOT WALKING! cn i say i hav4gotten how to walk the right way?or izzit my leg aren't heal yet & thus i cant walk the right way?i tried but cant.i'm so fed up.i long for sec 2 camp. i long to march.i long to walk.i long to heal my leg.i long to run.i long to do those things the way i wan. don antagonise mi any further. i might vent my anger on u.i cant tk it anymore.tis leg of mine better heal FAST! time is lyk travelling sooo fast. cn i rewind back to last wed?so i could prevent all these to happen? i wished i could but this will not happen even if in a thousand yrs.i cant stand my bro shouting & i feel lyk telling him 'CN U KP QUIET?' but i noe if i said it, we'll b kicking a fuss out of it.we'll b shouting or shld i say pickering on each other? y m i the eldest? y?a mistake i make cn cos lots of scoldings frm dad.a gd example frm mi wont hav any praises frm them?i don wan their praises anyway.i just wan to b mi.& DATS HOW U'RE GOING TO ACCEPT MI.I'M KRYSTAL.i'm not anyone else. words of encouragement might just cheer mi up.but u so not going to pick a tiny weeny fight wif mi.i'm getting angry easily today.I'M SO NOT GOING TO B OK. but on the other hand, i'll think postively.tts wad i encourage others to do & i'm not doing it now.after saying some of wad i wanted to say out, i'm feeling better. i need time to do my reflection once again when i already did tt ytd? or when? i cant rmb. but i so don care. I CANT WAIT FOR 3 DAYS TO C IF MY LEG IS STILL SWOLLEN.wad if when i went to the hospital & den my leg cant heal by tues? wad if..haix.terrible time.& if u wan to scold mi just go ahead or do smth abt it.the most i'll vent the anger out.or the least i'll kp quiet & listen to u.its different of mi to say all these words without laughing?i cant c a smile on my face.u better tell mi everything today.