having a bad cough now. half of my wish is going to be fulfilled-to be sick. haha. i know that sounds crazy but what can i do? having a mixed feelings. even though i've came up with a decision regarding guides but i'm still not on firm ground abt my decisions.

this decision won't let me regret but it's kinda irresponsible for me. and, i'm sure there are some ppl who will rejoice over my decision when it's annouced(let's see whether it will get approve)and there will be some who will be sad. all perhaps everyone will rejoice over it? but one thing i'm sure of is my parents will be very happy abt it. and it's good for me too. shan't talk abt it. i'm going to cry. Krystal, you're strong. don't cry. hush.

i wanna go for countdown this yr but don't know whether parents will allow it. most importantly is whether dad will approve it of me going home late late late, in the wee hours.






i'm confused. just let me be. i'll blog what's my decision is when it's officially granted permission for it. i can't bring myself to type 'haha' or even laugh out.
GOD,HELP ME. i'm tired.

i've nth in mind to blog now. shall blog next time then.

someone make me fall sick, pls. i know i'm crazy. but, i just want to fall sick.

YO! i'm now at the airport, alone. haha. came out of camp & wah lah! i'm at the airport. haha. how lame is that?

thanks Michelle& MunYee for that POOH! i was too happy when i saw it & almost cried.haha. but at vivo, how to cry?

had camp yeah? like i said so, 2 days & 1 night. camp was not bad but not exactly that good.

count down for the past few days to vietnam. but now, there's no need for countdown already liao lah. i'm hope i have fun there ((: but thinking of nobody accompany me there, i mean on the plane all these. haix):

ICAN TRAVEL ALONE CAUSE I'M 15 YR OLD ALREADY! HAHA!!! but i have to sign what idenmity form. so troublesome. haha. but that's a new experience ya? to travel alone. no everyone will be able to get the chance to travel alone. haha.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE IN ADVANCE!! MISS ME((:YA? HAHA


&&&&&&&&& SEC 3S, RMB TO BUY THE FOOD ON THE 26!! IF ANYONE SEC 3S SEE THIS, TELL EVERYONE NOT TO BE LATE ON THAT DAY & TELL FLO TO ASK THE SEC 2S IF THEY PLANNED THE GAMES ALREADY! THANKS YA!

SEEYA EVERYONE! TILL I'M BACK! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

everything seems SO YESTERDAY. time flew away fast and i don't like a single bit of it but on the brighter side of the picture, there are SOME REALLY good points that time should past that fast.but i shan't mention it here. didn't say these for no apparent reasons. it's just that looking at the calender of DECEMBER 2007, it's like abt 2 weeks more till school reopen huh? and don't know how many months till O lvl.

talking about O lvl...Yuping, if you'll reading this then good :D cause i've promised you that we'll find a job together after O lvl &&& I PROMISED THAT I'LL KEEP THIS PROMISE. haha. i'll ensure that i won't break this promise.

today is Wednesday. which means, 2 more days till camp. 3 more days till Vietnam ((: shan't come online tmr then. Shall pack my bag for vietnam and camp. didn't even start packing for anyone of it.

Seeya till next time :D i miss my friends ):

wed thurs fri.3 more days to camp. 2 days 1 night at camp christine. my cab fare ): it's gonna cost a bomb!

eh yuping. haha. saw her from last tues till today straight. everyday also see her. haha. at least we have smth to talk abt now everytime. haha

i'm too tired for anything, hmwk hmwk. can i don't do it?

vietnam, here i come! haha

7 things to WOW about.

1.booked BBQ pit already
2.went shopping
3.bought gift exchange presents
4.another camp coming up
5.going to vietnam soon
6.not much money left ):
7.i'm going to vietnam on my own ): ( I'm independant ((: NAH!)

left with payment for bbq pit (: finally a load off my mind. not in a good mood today. not myself. going vietnam real soon. 8 more days. and i'm not liking the it. gonna spend lots of money on cab fare alone. camp christine to my house. my house to airport. excluding booking fare will already cost me a bomb. i'm gonna die soon.

holidays aren't holidays at all. wanted to help mum during holidays but didn't even help much. not even 10days. mum even told me this ytd morning " i didn't even see you for the past few days." her words made me feel sinful. life short. got to treasure it. mum's good to me but my temper isn't good. even had arguements with her.

i'm going to concentrate on my studies next year. not going to let anything get too much in my way of studying.

i want that 20" winnie the pooh! it's super cute & pooh is telling me to bring him back. it's nice to hug also ((:

I'm tired.

Q: NAME A FREND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH A 'S
A: SHUN AN KOR!

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS
A: mum's shop

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
A: (shan't say. msg from teacher)

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: yeah.

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: sure do.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: ask my god. how would i know?

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: no idea? haha

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT ?
A: haha.(i don't even know if i used it that offen now)

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A: golden mushroom!

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: BYE BYE! to JIAYIN! haha.

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: yeah. alot when i'm bored.

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
A: what's that? never heard of it.

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: you mean hunting down of clothes or what?

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: let's see how it goes in future. ((:

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
A: long time ago and i forgot who was it. (:

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: hmwk. i didn't do any of it :X

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: yeah.

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: depends.

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
A: Justin Francis Wong Jing Xun.

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: YES!

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: huh? my room or?

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: 7 or 8 yrs old. i played with my bro's skateboard.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDE YOUR HOUSE?
A: CHALET!

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: i don't drive.

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: didn't watch any movie. but i want to watch one BADLY ):

Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
A: ppl who are close to me ((:

Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: i think so. they must be real bored.

LAST...
1) person you saw: Mum
2) talked to on the phone: JiaYin
3) hugged: is it winnie or my bolster?
4) person you texted: JiaYin.

TODAY...
1) date: 10 Dec
2) plans: do hmwk. but i didn't
3) dislikes about tomorrow: shan't say.

CURRENTLY:
1) missing someone: yeah.
2) mood: low, confused & fustrated.

TRUE OR FALSE:
I am a morning person: 10am considered?
I am a perfectionist: nah. i can't even do things well.
I am an only child: i've 3 BROTHERS ):
I am currently in my pajamas: i don't wear pajamas.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: depend on my mood.
I can be paranoid: depend
I currently regret something that i have done: nope.
I enjoy talking on the phone: depend on who's the caller.
I have a secret: yeah. i feel like shouting it out!

10 person to tag : who, so, ever, wants, to, do, it, then, do, it ((((((:




I'm real bored.not that i've nth to do. it's just that, i need a break. i'm tired, very tired. shall pamper myself with shopping sprees :D i feel like not bothering with anything, including what i'm suppose to do & it's a must to do. I really don't have a good feeling towards myself any everything. KRYSTAL! do what you should do!

After much reprimands and nagging from parents, i did my reflections for this year. to be exact, my results. Jiuying witnessed what my mum said to me. shan't blog abt what she said. but, those words set me thinking. my results are suffering, really suffering. parents want me to really reflect on it. and i'm doing it. kinda regretted doing the 'reflection'.

i no longer see the passion i used to have, the strong passion. the passion, for almost 3 yrs. i think it had came to a hault, almost. and i don't like a single bit of it. shouldn't be feeling this way. but see, my results. they're like shit. what to do with it? go home, dad nag nag nag, scold scold scold. mum also. they used to support me in whatever i do, but now, they aren't. in a dilemma, but what to do? i've already made my choice. if you're close to me, i guess you know what i'm talking abt. KRYSTAL, DON'T YOU REGRET IT! but ya, i'll still try my best for everything. okay, don't talk abt that. shld say smth happy((:

came back from chalet a few days ago. HAD FUN! really! a time for me to relax after a month long of being busy. went WWW despite is was raining/ drizzling. slept beside michelle everytime when i was sleeping. haha. i miss chalet ((: SATAY! yum yum! BBQ! yeah! but, when will we have that again?

looks like there isn't much resting for me huh. there's surely an activity for me each week.i'm having negative feelings abt it. "don't feel like going" these words are in my head now and then. i don't like this ): at least i did some shopping and i'm going shopping again. at least i did enjoy a little this holiday :D shall blog next time!

Air ticket problem had been solved. paid a 85bucks for that. like crazy. i could buy 4 to 6 shirts with that or 2 shorts ): nah. but for the sake of myself, others, guides, it's worth it huh. better than having the whole team not pass. even though i got scolded for that, i don't give a damn to it. it's not everytime or everyone get to be involved in lady powell test, or whatever you call that. haha. i'm considered lucky :D my money ):

The long await INTERNATIONAL CAMP is tomorrow! yeah! i've waited weeks for that. cause i want my HORSE RIDING! i want to try that badly. to make it sounds nicer, there's a lot more activitives awaiting for us to try there. US = Theresa, Glenda, Gabriele, Jia Yin, Chengting, Yuping, Huiling and Me! all the 3B guides are going :D hahaha. i'm either in sub camp 1 or 4., with the scotland guides or the 1st toa payoh brownies. which means, both groups will/might not be together, seperated. but thinking on the brighter side of it, we'll be interacting with the scotlands guides or the kiddy brownies. i was once a brownies too.once a guides, always a guides ((: I'm soooo sooooo looking forward for tmr's international camp. away from my bed for another 4 nights ): nvm. i'll be back on sunday and off to grandma's house after that((: i want my soup grandma :D

i want shopping! i want moneyy more than shopping. no money how to shop? haha. munyee, feb okay? 300bucks. i'll be looking forward for it.

vietnam vietnam vietnam. should i bring just hundred bucks or more? or less? will it be like bangkok? last minute bring me to the pratunam ( what every you spell that) and made me shopped like crazy? or maybe it won't? like china? which made me soo bored. oh gosh! can someone tell me what to do?

upcoming activities:

28 Nov to 2 Dec : International camp
4 Dec : Kite flying with whole company + 2 Combodian guides,
Class BBQ
4 Dec to 6 Dec : CHALET ((:
12 Dec : selling of cookies at vivocity
14 Dec : caroling practise at Ms Koh's resident,
Caroling (Lady Baden Powell)
17 Dec : Caroling pratise at Ms Koh's resident
18 Dec : Caroling at apex old folks
21 Dec to 22 Dec : Camping with NY girl scouts.
22 Dec to 26 Dec : VIETNAM!! ((:
27 Dec : Farewell Party

Looks like i'm sooo busy. lucky i didn't list down Nov's activities.haha. there's something everyday during Nov. Nvm. Nov is coming to an end, which means, i can get some resting time, shopping, work/help mum, study(i don't think i will ): ), use com. haha. let me cross my fingers and hope that there's no sudden-pop-out of activities. I WANT TO WATCH MOVIES and SHOPPING! girls are never enough of shopping :D

Chritmas is next month. Which means, need to prepare presents for close ones, best friends and friends. which in turn means i need money. and indirectly means, i need to help mum.let's see how indirectly it leads to.
(-> = indirectly)
christmas presents ->need money->help mum->need time->no time to shop->no new clothes->help mum or stay at home->make myself busy->tired->sick.

LOLS. there's so many indirectly. Christmas presents lead to so many things. overall: i need money and time! i need to study! dad's niam-ing at me to study. i don't like a single bit of it ): but I'm busy with other things. Krys, you got to set your priority right.

today's post is longgg.

I'm damn damn damn moody )))))))))))))))))))))))): Can someone cheer me up with that air ticket? or better still? sponsor me. i want my vietnam trip & the camp!

I don't want to be left alone in singapore. I want a change of flight time! argh! afternoon instead of morning. i want to go for my 2 day 1 night camp at camp christine. it just soooooooooooo happened to crash with my trip): why must this always happen? melacca trip in june and now, december. i guess the most, i must give up my trip, which i wanted sooooooooooooooooo badly or buy that stupid 280 bucks one-way jetstar air ticket, when i had already have one ticket for that or hope that stupid tiger airline will allow to take other airline which is like hey! wake up! it woulden't be possible .that jetstar's ticket timing is like soooooooo nice 1620hr flight. just nice after my camp can go home shower then chiong to airport. but mum, why did you have to always book tiger airway? that airline always spoil my plan ): i hate that airline. MUM!!! help me pay first won't you? argh! i'm sooooo gonna break down anytime.

earlier part in the day, i was super duper happy with those balestier hill pri kids. now, with the issue of my trip andddddddd camp, i'm feeling super sad, angry, fustrated. ARGH! GOD, PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO! i want my whole team to pass. if i could run away from this, i would. but i can't ): i'm MUST be responsible for my actions. i don't want undesirable consequences of me not going to camp andddddddd the most, i'll give up my trip and regret it FOREVER ):

KRYSTAL! QUICK GO AND FIND A PERFECT SOLUTION TO ALL THESE! I'M SURE THERE'S A PRETTY WAY OUT! which is, buy a new air ticket. daddy's surely angry with me if i do this. quick! think of a solution. i don't want a sad Krystal ):

i had alot of things to post initially. but now, no inspiration to post anything so shan't post much today.

had a 'party' had singapore american school party last evening. small kids. haha. i feel like a big sister to them. but too bad didn't interact much with them also..but the 4 of us have some fun on our own huh? haha. no more high heels for me. blister. no worth it. haha. but i'm smart to bring my slipper along. sometimes being lazy isn't that bad afterall?

going to service learning isn't that bad. we gained alot from there. most importantly, the p1 to 3 kids had improved. i'm glad. if not we'll be going there for nothing but just to finish up the 30 hours for service learning. it's alright for those abt 1 hr bus ride to balestier hill pro to teach. as long as you all learnt smth, it's worth the time and trip((: even though tuesday will be the last day i'm seeing all of the pri school kids, i'm sure i'll miss the times we spent together. " Mrs Peter, is jie jies coming today" this melted my heart.all 4 of us were smiling from ear to ear when we heard this. this one little short sentence really meant a lot to us. And i'm sure we're looking forward for all the times we're going to spent with you all. i'm going to tresure the last 6 hrs ((: seeya ltr!

my bulletin board for campfire((: I want to do it nice but yet simple. so simple and nice XD haha.

gonna start working full day for mum from 20 to 26 nov. she's going away to china for course i think.

PLS GOD! LET ME HAVE MY FLIGHT POST PONED TO 23 DEC INSTEAD! i don't want to miss my trip or miss the camp. ARGH!

THIS DEDICATION IS FOR JOHNSTAN CHUA SHUN AN!
eh. see how good i'm to write for you.. i know i owe this dedication for monnnths X)

Johnstan a.k.a SHUN AN a.k.a KOR

Kor ah.. you like my kor for more then 1 yr already right? even though i've known you for only 3 short years, but it's still VERY NICE to know you((: there's always lame jokes when you're around. we shared some things together huh? even though i can't rmb most of it. i still rmb one VERY funny thing. but i shouldn't say it here. don't want embarrass you here.haha. You helped me in my homework also. i'm grateful for what you had did. thanks for your support to buy GUIDES COOKIES ((: i hope you enjoyed the cookies! seldom go out with you. you hav tuition i not free. then i free you also not free.you free i not free.our timr crushed huh? Let's find one time andddd go out again okay? that neoprint was ugly. we go take again. haha. WU SHU JIA YOU!! GET SYF GOLD FOR OUR SCHOOL KKAYS!! but.. GIRL GUIDES IS STILL THE BEST!! let's jiayou towards our CCA! GO!GO!GO! KOR, I STILL LOVE YOU AS MY KOR!!! and and.. i knwo you're concern abt me too :D haha. okay. now i want my dedication. haha.

Came back from OBS a few days ago. It was fun. VERY x99999999 Fun. Esp the last night.. Maggie mee((: NEHRU RAWKS!!!!!!! 28/10/07 to 2/11/07. It was worth the time for this camp. 5 days 4 nights.. I thought it would be boring initially but hey, luckily it didn't turn out bad. I'll miss NEHRU, I promise. This camp reminded me of sec 3 camp. Even though I had forgotten my instructor name, I still remembered how he looks like. I'm hoping that everyone would turn up this Thursday. But I don't think will ):

Extra curriculum had started and it's going to last for 2 weeks. I'm going to die from going to school. Seating in class counting down to 2pm. It's very boring..But at least I learnt something during physics remedial((: Haha. My sciences are a total failure.. I wonder how in the world I can pass them. The only sub I have confident to pass is only mother tongue. GOD HELP ME! E & A Maths lesson is a bore. I just missed one lesson and I don't know what Mr. Lim is talking about in class. LALALA.

But looking on the brighter side of it, I can miss 2 days of lessons cause of kayaking course! YIPPE!! Tmr is the first day of course &… Friday is the swimming test. Service learning is not done yet. There's still about 10 more hours to go & we can get 4 points((: YEAH! C'mon let's jiayou and not gu1 fu4 our past 20hours of hardwork. Still need to prepare annual camp booklet, open house video slideshow. Even though I only have ßthis much time to doà I'm sure I'm going to do It once and do it nice((:

24Nov going to HQ to collect our Wee Kim Wee COP. We got in third for SD category but a trophy would be nicer((: haha. Won third for emergency shelter during the South Division Day! At least there's 3 achievements for me this year((: 1^st for javelin, 3^rd for emergency shelter, 3^rd for Wee Kim Wee challenge. Mum, Dad, Kor Kor, are you proud of me? Haha. JIAYOU KRYSTAL!! YOU CAN DO IT!

Extra Curriculum faster go away :P

ADE, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

I shall blog for the second time today. I'm starting to worry and ponder about certain things. Am I doing a good job? I think I'm not doing much. I just so worried that this company will come crushing down under my hands. I just hope*cross fingers*that I'm really doing fine the way it is. I just hate the ways that we're being despised by others. I want to prove to them that we can do it and we'll do it better than them. I just couldn't forget the words A said about us. Didn't imagine A to say this. Is it really A? I need everyone's support.

72hours of sleep is all that I need. Is it possible? 3days. I could do lots of things. Wanted to help mum during the holidays but sad to say, quite very busy. I'm sry mum. I promised to help you. But 22-26 Nov it's a must for me to help. Mum's going to china for a course. That means I'll still money ((: kind of broke. I promised my mum that I'll help her whenever I'm free but… I'm not even sure when I'll be free ya?

Did nonya kueh on Thursday. It tasted good ((: the appearance of the kueh doesn't mean it will look as nice as on the appearance. Haha. Mum and maid tasted them and said it was nice. Sense of satisfaction! I am craving for a shopping spree. When can I get that? I need $$$. I'm realistic mum, I know you'll sponsor me cause you'll still the best mum on earth :D

Oh my gosh, at this age of mine & I got rheumatism. That's what my mum said. The old injury fractured left ankle. It's starting to hurt. Cause it's the monsoon period. Is it NE monsoon? Kind of get my facts wrong. STM is acting up again. Cold temperature= ankle pain. i thought it was because of the packing up of the guides room.

Talking about guides' room, we threw away lots of things. I think 4 to 6 bags full of things? But still we have 12 full boxes of things. And moreover we need the zinc plates from the cupboard so, that adds up to many hand carry 'luggage'. It seems like we're moving house. The next thing to do is to pack my own room. Had done the packing of the books. My living room's table is now tidy and now, left with the table in my room. It's full of things. the very next thing to do is to have full concentration on guides ya? At the same time, I'll save up the money for the trip to Vietnam.

Holidays is full of things and going for 2 camps. OBS and International Camp. Sadly, we sec 3s are missing the annual camp L I hope we'll get the horse riding activity! I had always wanted to have a go on it. Next in-line skating. It would be nicer if its ice-skating. There's soo much things i want to do. Too many things, sooo little time.

HELLO((: I'm here to blog after like almost 1+ months huh?
no interest to blog and i don't know why.


i PASSED my eng overall.51. kinda bad but at least i tried.28marks for oral. i think that pulled me upXD haha. i passed my overalls!! YEAH! promoted to sec 4 express huh. i hope so and i believe i will!


had a sudden lost of motivation ytd. i don't know why and i want to know why. its kind of contridicting. PNA GOLD PNA GOLD. i want that. Not just me but everyone. But to achieve that, everyone got to co-operate with me. i can't do that alone. It's everyone's job. I'm just doing my part as a cl. i need everyone's support too.i'm feeling lousy. very lousy. i don't know why. 9 more points to gold. i hope we'll get that! i just hope that we'll win everyone competition. please god! QUEST GUIDES GO! GO! GO! WE'LL DO OUR VERY BEST IN EVERYTHING YA?i just hope that my wish will come true. Not waste the efforts that we had done. everyone will try our best right? We'll work as one. Once the holiday starts, it is going to be more busy. but i'm sure the hardwork will pay off. exams over and so, it's naturally full concentration on guides.


but on the bright side, there's still at least 5 days for me to relax while at overseas. vietnam. i wonder what's interesting over there. hmmm....

that's all. i did blog after all. but.... no mood... HAHA

hello((: i'm back to blogging. i'm updating now. didn't want my blog to rot too much.

campfire's over and i'm glad that everything went on smoothly. but they's still some things that i had overlooked causing some of us to be a little moody. i still think that our campfire is still the best!!! yippee! QUEST GUIDES ROCKS! we'll miss you. remember to come back kkays! i won't forget what you've told me. its in my memory. it will be forever in there. Miss lim, welcome to our quest guides family((: hope you'll enjoy your stay wih us!

EOY is coming and i'm still slacking away. Krys, you got to buck up! gonna study this sat. and i'm sure i'll study *cross fingers*((: i soo not paying attention in class. been daydreaming ya. nothing to do, draw.

i sooooooo soooooooo want the phone, dad! i soooooo sooooooo want to get rid of mum's phone. i can't tahan a phone wihout music.but i'm at wrong too, for spoiling my phone :/



i don't know if i'll do a good job. i don't know if we can attain that, i don't know how do you all feel towards me. i don't know what to do. i don't know how to vent those fustrations, unhappiness. i just don't know how......




La La La~ i'm hoping my house com will get fixed. i want the internet back again!!!

Mum, Dad, i'm in need of money :/ i had swept my savings all away, i think. I'm bankrupt:(

Campfire is coming.... I'm sure all the hardwork would pay off.

i did update okkays((: haha

seeya till then!!

ADELINE

i owe you this for a veryyyyyyy long time... i shall do it today ina shorter version.bro's rushing for the com.

i've know you for quite a long time. 6 yrs. yeah! i'm really glad that i've this friend like you. we always had funwhen we go out, in the past. but now,..... i guess its because i've no time for my friends? but i'm sure, this june holidays if i can, & i'm free & you asked me out, i'm sure i'll come out. i'll definitely not work that day. i'm sure. i really really want this friendship to carry on ((: you've been a great friend to me. & i'm sure i didn't regret knowing you. & i'm sure your 14th birthday is a memorable one. knowing that you trusted me that muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i'm reallt glad. at least i can help you in any tiny winy way i can. &&& i'm sure i can still be your listenin ear, vice versa. i'm reallllllllllyyyy very elated(((: I'm sure soon not long we can go back shoppin and goin out again((:

i shall write more next time((: jiuying, i write yours next time when i can.

i'm kinda missing the days we had last time. all the frequent getaways after school. saying everything bascially from our mind. it was so free & easy yeah. but i felt i'm difting away from both of you. that feeling wasn't good at all. to add on to it, my responsibilities are larger now so, i hope i need not be vexing over friendship huh. i thought no matter how difficult things are, we won't go our 'seperate' ways. felt kinda left out? i'm so not okay. Can't i go back to the past? i really don't know whati should do about it? spend more time with you all? but how? you guys aren't telling me anything? or did i reject it? i don't like that feeling? God,Can you tell me what i should do? i really can't bear all those friends.

)))))))))))))))))))))))))):

My com's screen went kuku. haha. troublesome to read with all the lines on the monitor. yeah! 6 more days and i'm off overseas! YEAH! and the guides are going to malaysia :( That feeling is not good but i'm sure i'll enjoy myself with my family & godparents? :P

Tons of hmwk. can i skip that for holidays? nah. i wish i could. geog, maths, A maths, physics, chemistry, chinese. 6 hmwks!! how in the world can i finish all that? mayb bring it with me overseas? i'm DEAD!

you guys have fun to melacca((: take care of yourself. look after one another &&&& rmb to take lots of photos!!!

i've posted! ((: haha.

till next time.

hello! i'm back to bloggin once again. it has been a long time since i had bloggedso here i am((:

theres so much happenin out there huh? so many troubles bein created? it seems like everything at once is goin against you. but nevermind. once this i over,i hope theres no more in the near future.

CCAs are being suspendede due to the exams which are around the corner.it will be so unlike me if i start studying now but i shall do the opposite of the past. here comes the newand goes the pasts. everything old must go? not really. exams exams exams. most kids/children are most afraid of not getting a passed/ good grades for exams or they are even afraid of being scolded by their parents huh. how about tenagers here? what they they most afraid off? parents?failed relationship? bad friendships? or what? it isn't that great to sit in front of your whole stack of books and there you go studying, studying and studying. will you do all that? or will you study halfway and walk around your house like for 20mins before settling to carry on studying? just like me.

exams period or studying for tests are like goin through some torturing for me. sittin there some whole long hours just for the sake of getting good results. what most parents will say " this are all for your own good.its for you not for us. its your future not ours" yayaya. we all know that but when they kept telling us that, aren't we already started studying or had already achieved good results before that?

days without guides on friday are different. i kept thinking that it was saturday yesterday when it was friday. its really different. it was goign home late on fri and not at home that early.

Sec 3 Sec 3. the life is really VERY different from my point of view. its like hey thats no art, no FnN no this no that. different different different. yeah i think thats it. and finally happy belated birthday to mag;boyfriend.

mag, i've blogged. HAHA

went to the library after guides ytd((: had fun. instead of doing shelving outside like what the other libraries asked the cip pupils to do, we went inside to the room time & time & time again. haha. we always had fun doing cip! FUN FUN FUN! WHEE~ cut cut cut. paste paste paste. take take take. arrange arrange arrange. yup yup yup.

its really true that once an 'exciting' topic had been started, it will continue on. now & forever* still then. it doesn't seems good & it won't feel like its you.

I'M TIRED OF ALL THESE. IF YOU WANT IT, TAKE IT ALL YOU WANT! MUM,DAD,KOR!!! HELP!

Woosh!!! its been days since school reopened.
yup. that means its a new term for a new start?haha.
didn't hav the mood to study or anything.
i just feel that everything is not right.

its not going my way
or its going against me.
it won't be the same
i know it.
its really a holiday that changed it all.
but i can't escape from reality can I?

I believe its just parts and parcels of life.
I may not share the same thinking as everyone
but theres sometimes where you can't take it all.
I've been wanting to vent all my fustrations,
emotions, anger all out.
anyone has any rough papers which you don wan?
Can i just tear it all up?
Shout it from the bottom of my heart.

GET IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!
you're giving problems. YA!
you've spoilt my mood.
not in the best of mood today.
Don't know why neither.
I'm not those who will get angry easily, do I?
I don want to think about it.
But i think you're going to go against me.
FOR NOTHING I HAD DONE! i think.

A ride down the road.
thinking,thinking & still thinking.

lack of sleep.
tired,restless & blah blah blah
a simple sit up straight will eventually comes to a sleeping position?

yayaya. things things things.
just let the matter rest?
lets just kick it aside for now &
when we need it, lets just call for it.
its either a shoot or a peaceful talk.
i don't know if its purposely or coincidentally.
i don wanna think about it.
its out of my reach either.
its either a mind set thinking about it or something else.

i think i'm more interested in sleepin now.
HAHA
hmwks not done.
i know i'm gonna be dead meat if i don't do it by tmr.
my eyelids are covering my eyes.
but the hmwks r stacking up my mind.

yawns.
let me rest.
i wanna catch a wink or whatever.

its been a wonderous disaster?

camp ended ytd. was tired though. showered & went to eat wif yp after that. home & slept. basically after that was slping time for mi! haha. replenish all the time-sleep lost. haha.


leant quite alot from the camp. we knew abt them more. i didn't imagine things would turn out lyk this. jogathon would remind me of that. how in the world cn i ans that qn posted by u? now i know what does the song 'i see ur ture colours' is abt. ppl's character varies. u know i know & we know. thats enough. there's no need more ppl to noe abt it.


sec 1s guides were enrolled. welcome((: its gonna be a tough journey but u will know that its worth it((: tears, laughter etc.. u'll find it in guides. & the guiding spirits....


enjoyed the camp though. had fun! at least powderful didn't get the 5th position. its a tie. haha. good job everyone! if i've offended anyone in any case, sorry. i hope there isn't


i didn't mean not to tell u or wadeva. its just that its either i thought , it slipped, and i've forgot abt it. sorry.


i didn't want to rmb those things. hear, think abt it, let it go. let it be the past. but theres just some things that let it go won't help. solve them. whatever things that happened for the past few days..


school gonna reopen in a few days time. my bro's coming back tmr from india. i hope he had slimed down in anyway or anyhow. darkened skin too. haha. i can't imagine how he looks like. fetching him from the airport early in the morning at the wee hrs 5 ++? lets see how.


let the tears dripped
be it the past,
the friendship,
or anything.
i woulden't want to see it this way.
no one had expected it.
it became the 'hot topic' for that
& ya i hope u know that?
a changed in a way or two may help?

wild wild wet-ed wif yuping today. seems lyk not in the mood to play. its gonna be hell for mi. rush through an assginment for lit at night? nah. i doubt i cn finish it. gonna buffet tmr! whee~


camp's on mon. POWDERFUL all the way! i'm sure POWDERFUL will rawk the whole camp!


there's a time for playing & a time for studying. y not spend the whole time slping? HAHA. if 1 day were 10 hrs more, won't it be nice? its the starting of the holiday & i hoped i'll enjoy every moment of it. but i bet its hmwk hmwk all the time. haha


i need a new phone & some new *******************!!!! haha.

it was sooo unlucky this morning. mdm teo caught my ********************. she wants to check it when skol reopen.i thought she was going to catch mi of not tucking in my shirt. she sent shudders down myspine. PHEW!


ppr is back. not too bad & not too good. average. eng-failed it. ar!!! but since there aren't any positions,i think many ppl's lives are saved.haha. had guides today. played captain ball. my 'reward' for it- 2 blisters & 1 injured thumb.its been a really long time since i played captian ball.fun fun fun. i hope camp is FUN! whee~~



lets hav fun & photo-taking tmr.its a brand new day for a brand new start for march holidays! HAPPY SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!
& ya, i a saw a "ghost" on wed, ytd & today. it isn't a nice term but... haha.

i didn't mean that.

HAPPY APPRECIATION DAY to everyone! 020307., 2007 appreciation day((: thanks for all the letters given by you all! i'm glad, happy,elated etc.. to recieve all those letters. someone passed mi by letters until very the bu nai fan.haha.i owe you all appreciation letters. didn't had a single form at all. wanted to give you all on a piece of paper but i didn't hav the time to write so next mon i hope i cn pass it to you all.


camp patrol -> mi,chengting,dawn,cuimin,michelle,jieru,natalie are all in the same patrol. I'm sure a failure as a camp pl but i wont give up! POWDERFUL r who we are!!!! power is powderful. haha. having our camp real soon. hasn't recieved our camp kit list yet. gonna hav the same camp as the redcross. jiuying((:

sry jiayin for the paint on ur shirt. no intention but on the verge of spraying the paint all over u. haha. jkjk.



having geog remedial tmr & out we go! haha. not in the tip top condition? don't wan to run in the track events. but jogathon i wan. just for the sake of the badge? haha.its been really some time since i've ran for long distance? rewind back to the past? where i'd a broken leg & down for pe for the whole 2nd semester except for the last 1/2 pe lessons i think. haha. time really flies.


&&&& guess wad? i've no mood for holidays. all i could think of is just slp slp slp!! besides that theres still more. 1, 2, 3, 4, HI-5 [five]!


all i could think of was this &
all i could dread of was that

it wasn't such a good day after all. got angry at the slightest thing. not a gentleman after all. idiot. shan't elaborate much on that. i wanna hav the kind of life i once OWNED it. i don owe anyone a living.


i shall let God decide my fate after all.

its end of feb! 2 months in skol. time really flew. it doesn't seems to mi that 2 months had already past. tests, assignments. tons of them. u've done that & u've handed in that. Phew. the term is finally going to an end in a week. that means, holidays r coming! camps!


stayed back for house prac but in the end theres no house prac. went to tiong. bought my pens & ate seaweed wif jiuying. sat outside the 'convenience store'. ate DARK CHOCOLATE! YUM! but its not bitter enough for mi. HAHA.


i think i'm gonna fail my humanities. i'll just hope that i'll pass my lit this time round. i'm just eager & dreading to see my results.

20 mins more to CHINESE NEW YR!!! Wheee!! Hangbaos, goodies, beer, etc.. its not everytime u cn hav it huh. but in tis coughing & sore throat condition, i doubt theres any beer for mi this yr. haha. but who cares? i wan to enjoy ((: received 3 hangbaos so far. i'm sure theres more tmr. YIPPEE!!!! MORE MORE MORE! money minded? nah. thats the normal instinct for kids/ teenagers lyk mi to be joyful abt, headaches for married/ single or whatever adults. thats wad my ah ma said : " Chinese New yr is always what the children lyk, but adults don lyk a single bit of it. " just for packing of their own angbaos, i wondered how much money they spend for it? in don noe how many yrs, its will be time for us? had renuion dinner today. ate not much? haha. more hangbaos tmr? cause more relatives((: HAHA


had fever, headache last sun. aftershoke for earthquake but after sickness for fever? cough. but not too bad not so serious. last yr's worst cough i ever had? tests and tests for this week. finally tis long 4 days break i hope is not torturing. but i'm sure its far better off thn studying for tests. failed maths test so far. JIAYIN, LETS PROVE TO THEM THAT OUR MATHS WILL PASS & NOT LET THEM SAY WE'LL MAKE THEM LOSE FACE!!! stupid.


ade, i'll miss hanging out wif u all too! i'll miss u also! no need to say if u don noe i miss u anot. I'll sure miss u. 5 yrs ++ friendship lehs. HANG out wif u soon((:

emo? haha. talked wif yp all the way from bugis to home in the bus. talked abt BLAH BLAH BLAH... haha. i said 'need no.33 bus more' thn 33 came. den today i said 'ltr i untie my hair 64 here' den 64 came. & again today. i said 'need no.64 bus more' den 64 came. HAHA! next time shld say earlier hor,yp? but i wont. HAHA. & i rmbed that during guides last week i said i feel lyk marching but ltr will get pumping den ps came in & called us to march & pumpings in the end. HAHA


yp, need not think twice abt those 'STUPID CREATURES' one. let nature tk it own course. i cant predict wads instore for mi but i cn change the moment i'm in now. i could make full use of my time. lyk today. FLAG DAY. new exprience for mi. 2nd time doing flag day. more confident this time round. practice makes perfect permanent. dats wad Mr Lim said. ask for donation until throat is dry. drank sarsi den worst.


luckily hl was wif mi on the bus to plaza singapura, if not i would missed the stop. i fell aslp on the bus even though the sun was sorching hot. i slept so soundly i think. den hl had to tap on mi for a few times before i could woke up. Haha. sry ya. met aunt there. shop. bought 3 tops & 2 bottoms. THANKS YA! .

i'm back blogging! 1 month plus since i blogged? com's internet down. to be exact siao! haha. as long as i'm able to use the com wif internet back, i'm happy wif it((: many things happened these few days.


i really wondered. if 1 month of skol & things turned out to be very different. My afternoons in the past were mostly spent by either ade,jy or hannah. its different ppl now. & it doesn't feel tt right huh? i hope i'll get used to it OR spent it wif dem again? i hope friendship in the past hasn't change. Come to mi when u all need someone to talk to kkays((: even if i cant help u in wadever ways, my ears r always there opened for u all((: even though u noe my ear siao one lah hor. my STM is also quite frequent lah but i hope its better thn the past.


Guides busy too. almost whole week r all packed. dancing dancing dancing. had new dance steps. but the old dance steps were nice. but too bad. had to wear chinese costume. & mine is too short. changed it wif jiayin's one.THANKS JIAYIN! but the costum is small for mi. i'm just fat XD haha. go on diet? NAH! haha. nicer term. cut down on food intake. fried food since i cant take much now. haha. guides guides guides. now i understand the stress built up now.& its just only the beginning of the yr. YP, touchwood hor. cleanse ur mouth wif detergent also cn.HAHA. jkjk. i hope after the performance which ison the 24th feb, i hope my weeks r not tt packed.


new clothes not bought yet. no time. onli tt ->little<-- time do i hav to rest? my 10 hrs of slp went flying away.haha. slp cn fly! HAHA. pigs also cn y cant monkey fly? tt will be mi huh, monkey.haha. CNY is ard the corner. wad does tt mean? HANGBAO!! HAHA! RENIOUN dinner too! Ade, I'm afraid tt i'll hav to disappoint u. I don think i'll hav the time to spare the whole day out wif u & waimun. I think u & waimun go together bahs. S O R R Y ! ! i hope u'll understand. i'll try to c if i'm free anot kkays?


skol work is difficult? A maths is challenging. haha. thinking of class, my hair will stand. Yp, u understand rite? haha. i'm not against anything. &&&&& its lyk finally in a L O N G L O N G Time since i passed my CHEM.!!!! YIPPEE!! 11/15?i think so!! yeah! kor[shunan], thanks for telling mi to ryte the apparatus names. if not 3 marks will fly even though i had 2 marks awarded for it.haha. its better thn none. almost the 'neighbours' in class sitting near mi, i've known them for yrs. jiayin.huikhim,weiling,kaiting,shunan. erm...


jiayin, this paragraph is dedicated to u((: haha. i've known u for yrs.. 5 l o n g yrs. we watched each other grew up huh. From those innoncent, guai guai looks to these days, crazy crazy & crazy looks? haha. Rmb, we used to help ms lee. packed files all these[if i'm not wrong]? inside the don noe wadeva room. haha.i still hav photos taken in the room. wif all those balloons in our hands. & it was lionel who took it for us. haha. left a deep impression for mi. u wasn't tt crazy in the past. ppl do changed rite? L.A.U.G.H co. Fiesta. blah blah blah. at least i'm proud of my primary skol days. 4 straight A's for PSLE. got into the same skol as u but unfortunatly i'm in the different class as u & yp. was disappointed at first. but hey, 2D brought mi LAUGHTERS & FUN TOO! spent first few sec 1s days together but didn't after a while. but we got into the same CCA didn't we. WE HAD FUN THERE TOO RITE! u grew to be more outspoken then the others.[i hope i used the correct words]. good leader too. u had the gift of speaking from god.Praise lord!((: sec 2s. 3rd term. Mrs swit & Mrs salty NO MORE! Miss spicy & Miss sour sounds nicer huh. haha. our little secret but no more. i didn't wan much ppl to noe but oh well. haha. mvn next time we shall hav our little secrets again kkays? haha. 09/08/06. movie special again((: haha. this time u noe i noe cn liao. my mouth's zipped.super duper glue glued up.haha. streaming. & we got into the same class. sec 2s passed just lyk tt. now, u're sitting in front of mi in class. blabbering nonstatical things in class. haha. we'll talk as much as we cn ya? haha. vantalise ppl things ar.haha. but vandalise until not bad lah.haha. put the past behind us kkays? we'll just look forward to tomorrow! Smile to tomorrow((: