having a bad cough now. half of my wish is going to be fulfilled-to be sick. haha. i know that sounds crazy but what can i do? having a mixed feelings. even though i've came up with a decision regarding guides but i'm still not on firm ground abt my decisions.

this decision won't let me regret but it's kinda irresponsible for me. and, i'm sure there are some ppl who will rejoice over my decision when it's annouced(let's see whether it will get approve)and there will be some who will be sad. all perhaps everyone will rejoice over it? but one thing i'm sure of is my parents will be very happy abt it. and it's good for me too. shan't talk abt it. i'm going to cry. Krystal, you're strong. don't cry. hush.

i wanna go for countdown this yr but don't know whether parents will allow it. most importantly is whether dad will approve it of me going home late late late, in the wee hours.






i'm confused. just let me be. i'll blog what's my decision is when it's officially granted permission for it. i can't bring myself to type 'haha' or even laugh out.
GOD,HELP ME. i'm tired.