i'm feeling super lost now. i don't know what's the next step.i don't know what to do.

i really wish that i have more time to study for O's even though it's impossible to have that now. dad's really afraid that i won't do well. He kept reminding me to study but my passion for studying isn't there. i want to do something else. something more contructive for myself. but isn't studies the first and foremost thing to lead you somewhere else in the future? if there's really a chance, i'll really go overseas to studies. Eventhough i may be relunctant to be away from my families, friends & my room, but still i hope i'm studying elsewhere. In my mind, the schools in other countries seem better. But in reality, i know Singapore is still consider as one of the best in the world. Somehow or anyhow i got to push myself real hard to study. crying over spilled milk is not a clever thing to do.

Today is the start of prelim. first paper was A maths. Went into the hall with a little of confidence but when i got up from my seat, my confident level had dropped to a bottomless pit. First paper & my confidence is gone. Seriously, i'm wondering what my prelim results will be. If there's improvement, I'll be glad. If i scored lower than mid-yrs, i really need help. PPL HELP ME! i really need someone to force me to study. my only motivation for now is that i'm going overseas the day after the last O's lvl paper and that i'm able to enjoy my holidays after the Os.

this stupid bug flu has been pestering me since last thurs. i hate this feeling. somehow or another, it'll get into my way when i'm studying. told mum i caught flu & cough but she doesn't look like she care. she nodded her head and didn't bother to get me medicine. ridiculous. argh!

YO! it's 080808 today! wonderful day huh? Lots of couples rushing to get registered for their marriage & lots of pregnant women have been waiting for this day to give birth to their babies. In order to have another 080808,most probably you got to wait for another 100 or 1000 years to come. Let's see whether humans can live till 1000 years later first. Okay, let me get back to my point.

Olympic is starting today & right now, it's the opening ceremony. Best wishes to all those competing for Singapore! Even though the athletics had left for Beijing days/ weeks ago, but it's still not too late to give them my blessings. I'm sure they'll return to Singapore with GLORY! Why? cause they will be getting better achievements than they had 4 yrs ago.

Today is another special day. School's Ndp today. GUESS WHAT????? GIRL GUIDES ATTAINED THE UG SHIELD! ug shield is some sort of a compeition among my sch's 5 ug. It was introduced in 2005. This year is the 4th yr. Out of the 4 yrs, guides managed to attain the ug shield for the 3rd time! isn't that something to be proud of? I was shocked & estatic when i heard from jiemin that we'll be getting the ug shield! So did the rest of the sec 4 & 5! YEAH! KEEP IT UP QUEST GUIDES! Juniors, it's up to to work hard and get it for the 4th, 5th, etc time! JIA YOU!

Nonetheless, all the 5 UG were awarded with their company's award and the best cadets awards by Mrs Bala. Photos are with Fiona. Wait till i recieve it from her, i'll thn post it up (: I'M REALLY HAPPY TODAY! except from the fact that the area above my eyes started to hurt when i was about to recieve the prizes. I must had looked terrible then. Can't even open my left eyes fully. & many asked whether i'm feeling alright. Thanks for all of your concern ((: I'm feeling a lot better now. eh wait, it's starting to hurt again.

Back to the olympic, greece is making their entry into Beijing's bird nest. Okay, the stadium is huge, very huge. Lots of ppl are gathering there right now. but hey! all those spectators spent about 2hrs of their entire life with each other. shan't sidetrack. it's now for Maldives to make thier entry. I'm waiting for Singapore to enter the stadium. I'm expecting a huge contingent from Singapore entering the stadium with pride & honour. Of course, with full of confident! If i'm not wrong, Li JiaWei is the flag bearer. Goodluck for her table-tennis!

WOW! I'm astonished by Japan, Denmark, Ukraine, Uzbekistan, Brazil, Canada etc... huge contingent! There will be one day that Singapore will be marching in in big contingent like theirs. maybe this day won't happen so soon cause olympic is like once every 4 yrs? haha

Tmr is SINGAPORE NATION DAY! WOOHOO~ HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY TO YOU! i'm going to try my best next yr to watch it live at marina bay! when youth olympic starts, i feel like going to watch it too. HAHA. mayb when that day comes, my enthusiasm is gone ):

It's gonna be a longer than usual weekend because of national day. I hope i'll do something progressive & enriching during this 3 days. And i'm anticipating for tmr. Bless me that the area above my eyes won't hurt tmr. tada (:

seriously lacking of motivation now. dad kept asking me to study & mum kept nagging me to study. Dad's just worried for me. He doesn't wants me to regret it & go running to him & cry when my O lvl results are out. Overheard my parents conversation late last night. Dad was defending for me when they were discussing abt my results. Nonetheless, mum compared me to her patient who achieved super good results for her O lvl. Fortunately, dad replied her in an irriatated tone saying "not everyone is the same. & if Krystal is cut out being a studying material, she'll be studying all day long."

that sentence set me thinking. i rmb months before PSLE, dad motivated me to do well by saying he'll reward me if i manage to get into express. Also, he doesn't want me to go crying when if i get into na even though results for my pri6 mid-yr is still in the range of na. But in the end, i managed to get into express & my reward came months after that...

seriously need a tutor right now. i'm going mad MAD! ARGH!

i've gotta study......