i had failed as a friend. Failed thoroughly.
Worse off, failed towards my best friend.
How saddening is that?
I'm not even fit to be your friend.
Don't even know what's happening to you.
Got a feeling that i'm kept in the dark for too long.
is it because i had failed to communicate with you through the computer world?
through the internet?
i don't know why.
The only thing i know now, we're drifting apart.
maybe things will be better after O's.
I don't know.
friends or studies?
i believe studies is more impt for now
cause this yr is an important yr.
other things can wait?
i don't know.
i really don't know.
i don't want to lose a friend, a best friend
because of my neglect towards our friendship.
it's really my fault.
but i'm truly confuse.
friends first studies later?
studies first friends later?

i've come to a decision.
studies first.
i will do my very best after O's.
you have my word for it.

didn't want to blog initially. but i really have to blog this. this has already been on my mind since months ago. but after today, this guilt is getting heavier. i'm not blaming anyone, just feeling i had really failed as a true friend.

had a dream last night. a sweet dream. but my dreams are really the opposite to the reality. so, my dream won't come true after all.

bye. i don't know when i'll blog again. tmr? i don't think so.