I'm going to start to nag, BEWARE!!! &&& don't bother to scroll down & read. crapping all the way.
i missed the period for dpa.. that's a really really really stupid thing for me to miss it. i should have went ahead with my dad's suggestion. He said since i wouldn't be qualified for jc, why not apply for dpa. at least i can secure a place for myself if i'm accepted.
Anyway, i still can't decide on which course to take. One moment you can hear me saying that i want Tourism & resort management course, the next i'll be swaying along with my decision. how stupid am i? stupid stupid stupid. anybody can guide me along with choosing my course? i'm damn damn damn damn damn damn confuse. the only single thing i know is that i want to work in a hotel/ office when i enter the workforce.who doesn't want? ARGH!ARGH!ARGH!
What am i really after to? what are my dreams? what do i want to achieve? what am i really good at? WHAT AM I REALLY GOOD AT???? basically, do i have anything that i'm really go at? i like to deco but that doesn't mean i need to take up interior designing right? but, i once thought of going for that course. the only thing that drew my back, my art. drawing is definitely smth that i don't have the talent on.
To let my look at what i want & what are my interests, i shall list them down.
I LOVE TO SLP :/
I LOVE TO TRY NEW & CRAZY THINGS!
I WANT TO WALK FROM REDHILL TO AMK. (i know that's crazy)
I LIKE TO PLAN THINGS.
I LOVE TO REDECORATE ALMOST EVERYTHING.
I LOVE TO READ STORYBOOKS THAT REALLY CATCHES MY EYES UPON READING THE FIRST LINE :D
I WANT TO WORK IN AN HOTEL/ OFFICE.
I WANT TO WORK IN A SERVICE LINE.
i have nth more to write. seems like i'm a goner. i don't even know exactly what's my dream )))))))))))))))))))))))):
1.5 months to prelim.
3 more months to O's lvl.
4 more months to FREEDOM!
Monday, July 07, 2008
i had failed as a friend. Failed thoroughly.
Worse off, failed towards my best friend.
How saddening is that?
I'm not even fit to be your friend.
Don't even know what's happening to you.
Got a feeling that i'm kept in the dark for too long.
is it because i had failed to communicate with you through the computer world?
through the internet?
i don't know why.
The only thing i know now, we're drifting apart.
maybe things will be better after O's.
I don't know.
friends or studies?
i believe studies is more impt for now
cause this yr is an important yr.
other things can wait?
i don't know.
i really don't know.
i don't want to lose a friend, a best friend
because of my neglect towards our friendship.
it's really my fault.
but i'm truly confuse.
friends first studies later?
studies first friends later?
i've come to a decision.
studies first.
i will do my very best after O's.
you have my word for it.
didn't want to blog initially. but i really have to blog this. this has already been on my mind since months ago. but after today, this guilt is getting heavier. i'm not blaming anyone, just feeling i had really failed as a true friend.
had a dream last night. a sweet dream. but my dreams are really the opposite to the reality. so, my dream won't come true after all.
bye. i don't know when i'll blog again. tmr? i don't think so.
Worse off, failed towards my best friend.
How saddening is that?
I'm not even fit to be your friend.
Don't even know what's happening to you.
Got a feeling that i'm kept in the dark for too long.
is it because i had failed to communicate with you through the computer world?
through the internet?
i don't know why.
The only thing i know now, we're drifting apart.
maybe things will be better after O's.
I don't know.
friends or studies?
i believe studies is more impt for now
cause this yr is an important yr.
other things can wait?
i don't know.
i really don't know.
i don't want to lose a friend, a best friend
because of my neglect towards our friendship.
it's really my fault.
but i'm truly confuse.
friends first studies later?
studies first friends later?
i've come to a decision.
studies first.
i will do my very best after O's.
you have my word for it.
didn't want to blog initially. but i really have to blog this. this has already been on my mind since months ago. but after today, this guilt is getting heavier. i'm not blaming anyone, just feeling i had really failed as a true friend.
had a dream last night. a sweet dream. but my dreams are really the opposite to the reality. so, my dream won't come true after all.
bye. i don't know when i'll blog again. tmr? i don't think so.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
mok wan ting went back on thurs ))))))))))))))))))))))): BE BACK SOON!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wonder when she's gonna be back here in s'pore.. perhaps, we'll be the one flying there. COOL huh? fly there with friends & w/o parents. HAHA.
Once again, time is running out fast. i've got to buck up on all my subjects, esp pure geog. geog is important for me, VERY IMPORTANT. whether or not i'll be studying tourism or humans-related course will depends on me, myself and I. i wouldn't want to regret my effort....
woke up near 1 pm today. slept at 7am. couldn't go for geog test because of a bombing hedache. i wasted my own effort for studying for today's test & in the end couldn't make it. nvm, revision for myself :D
i'm still feeling super tired ): i need more slp but there's more hmwk to be done. nvm, perserve for a few more months!!!!!! after that everyone will see my vanish from earth on 11 NOV 2008's afternoon. told my elder bro that i'll fly that very afternoon ((: Want to know the reason? BECAUSE O LVL WILL BE OFFICIALLY OVER FOR ME :DDDDDDDDDD LOLS! i'm thinking of what to do after o's even when it's not here yet. i think that's the 2nd/ 3rd time i'm saying the same thing.haha.
But before i officially vanish after O's, i shall vanish from blogger first :DDD studies is first on my list. perhaps during this 4.5 months, i may have the urge to blog sometimes. i think almost all the O lvl candidates for 2008, who have blogs, will surely cut down on blogging.who doesn't want to score well? i'm definitely not one of them ((: i want to score WELL!
My aim: score like my elder brother friend, wei hao. wei hao had been on the papers when his o lvl results came out. 9 points. if he had a cca, that will be 7 points for him. isn't that result great? My elder bro is great too! apart from eng and mother tongue, he scored all A's for all of the other subjects. both eng & mother tongue he scored C6. imagined if he had scoreA2 for his language, his L1R2B2 would be 9 also.
i hope i'll score as well as wei hao. but of course this doesn't come easy. Wei hao & my bro studied everyday without fail. their hardwork really paid off......
Once again, time is running out fast. i've got to buck up on all my subjects, esp pure geog. geog is important for me, VERY IMPORTANT. whether or not i'll be studying tourism or humans-related course will depends on me, myself and I. i wouldn't want to regret my effort....
woke up near 1 pm today. slept at 7am. couldn't go for geog test because of a bombing hedache. i wasted my own effort for studying for today's test & in the end couldn't make it. nvm, revision for myself :D
i'm still feeling super tired ): i need more slp but there's more hmwk to be done. nvm, perserve for a few more months!!!!!! after that everyone will see my vanish from earth on 11 NOV 2008's afternoon. told my elder bro that i'll fly that very afternoon ((: Want to know the reason? BECAUSE O LVL WILL BE OFFICIALLY OVER FOR ME :DDDDDDDDDD LOLS! i'm thinking of what to do after o's even when it's not here yet. i think that's the 2nd/ 3rd time i'm saying the same thing.haha.
But before i officially vanish after O's, i shall vanish from blogger first :DDD studies is first on my list. perhaps during this 4.5 months, i may have the urge to blog sometimes. i think almost all the O lvl candidates for 2008, who have blogs, will surely cut down on blogging.who doesn't want to score well? i'm definitely not one of them ((: i want to score WELL!
My aim: score like my elder brother friend, wei hao. wei hao had been on the papers when his o lvl results came out. 9 points. if he had a cca, that will be 7 points for him. isn't that result great? My elder bro is great too! apart from eng and mother tongue, he scored all A's for all of the other subjects. both eng & mother tongue he scored C6. imagined if he had scoreA2 for his language, his L1R2B2 would be 9 also.
i hope i'll score as well as wei hao. but of course this doesn't come easy. Wei hao & my bro studied everyday without fail. their hardwork really paid off......
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